Quote from: Julia-Madrid on January 03, 2015, 09:48:41 AM
Hi Nolin
Please try to be careful with phytoestrogens. While I think a moderate consumption of soy milk is no bad thing (I do it myself due to lactose intolerance), perhaps 3 litres a day might not be quite what the doctor would have ordered.
Are you working towards entering a formal HRT program?
Regards
Julia
I am trying to enter a formal HRT program. It's just that where I live (the Netherlands), I have to follow the national transgender program, and they're low on staff. As a result, I had to wait for over a year just for the first appointment, and now it's been about 7 months since the first appointment, I still have to see the psychiatrist to confirm if I actually "qualify", and at the moment it'll take at least about 2 months before I can start anti-androgens and/or HRT. Since phytoestrogens bind to the same receptors, I intend to switch over to normal milk when I start HRT, so it doesn't interfere.
I don't always drink that much soy milk; it's just that drinking it seems to calm down my gender dysphoria, possibly because of the knowledge that it contains phytoestrogens, or because of the phytoestrogens themselves. While my feelings about my gender have changed quite wildly for a long time, from "I'm most certainly meant to be a girl" to "It's too late, I should just give up" to "I don't want to become a man" to "Maybe gender doesn't really matter anyway" and then looping, one of the constant things if my fear to masculinize. Sometimes my thoughts have a tendency to get sucked up in trans* subjects, and when that happens I usually come out of it with a determination to change and the feeling that I should do something, only to be reminded that the only thing I can officially do is wait. That's why at such times I end up drinking nothing but soy milk, hence the excessive intake at some times; after all, even regardless of whether or not it is actually effective, it feels like it's the only thing I can do.
The reason I posted this thread was because I spent the days around Christmas trying to figure out my feelings for sure again, and as a result my dysphoria got worse and I felt like I had to do something, so I'm currently drinking soy milk like a lunatic again. Then I remembered how at first, two years ago, I got hot flashes when drinking soy milk, which I then linked to estrogen deficiency, making me worry that the soy milk might have an effect opposite of what I intended. So I thought I'd see if there was a scientific explanation that could give some insight to reassure me.
However, I just took another good look at the wiki page on hot flashes, and apparently it can also be a sign of testosterone deficiency instead and is associated with anti-androgens, meaning it might have the effect I intended after all. However, what worries me then is that I only had hot flashes at first, and then after a week I didn't anymore, meaning that on the long term it might actually have an averse effect, either leading to an increase in testosterone as a reaction to the deficiency, or making me resistant to the anti-androgenic effect. This could also be supported by the observation that I only noticed any other effects that could be caused by phytoestrogens, like breast development, when I increased the soy milk intake.
I have a tendency to worry. Do you think my concerns are justified? Or does someone have an insight that I'm overlooking?