... it was AMAZING!
I have been so sick with worry and fear for the last two weeks about this and I could fill about four pages about how the past 12 hours of my life has went but I won't do that. I'm pretty sure she'll join Susans so I'll leave most of the details to her if she wants some good material on her opening post.
Anyway, to summarize:
- The most wonderful woman I know now knows what has been plaguing me since childhood.
- She is curious and not at all angry or feeling betrayed.
- She isn't doing the typical "blaming herself" thing and seems to truly understand.
- She is extremely excited that she'll finally see her true spouse without all the mental anguish she's known since we've met.
- She is pretty confident she'll still be into me after everything is corrected with my body. Actually, she's kind of excited about it.
I barely slept last night with all of this going through my head but I can say it's the first night I didn't cry myself to sleep in days. I wanted to post something before I slept but I was still slightly afraid she would change her tune by the morning after things set it (wasn't sure if she was just in shock). I am a truly blessed person to have her in my life. I mean... I am soooo filled with gratitude right now.
I also owe a ton to you fine folks here at Susans. I have read soooo many stories about marriages living with this and it finally gave me some sort of hope that not everything will be a lost. If had not done this... I don't know how much longer I would have been here. There are only two ways to get rid of the body you don't belong in. Now I have the better option open to me.
Thank you.
Hopefully, you will all be hearing from this wonderful woman I am married to. I'll try to get her to join tomorrow.
