In advance sorry if this needs a trigger warning, but i didn't really think this needed one.
I'm tired, i'm poor, it's nice i still have a house to the threat of being homeless is ever looming and it scares the hell out of me.
I hate that, i hate that i have to live under those conditions, it's a risk every ->-bleeped-<-ing month. This one is very trivial but i'm playing a video game i love and i'm horrible at it thus not being able to finish it, that sucks.
I hate my face, i look at my avatar everytime i come to this website and i see the face of a man, with masculine features especially my jaw. It kills me, it's pretty funny because when i took the picture i felt i looked amazing, i feel like people look at me and judge me although it's mainly glance's, it's also a bummer no one (out of here) thinks i'm pretty, i love you all but it's the real world i have to deal with, hell, i do get told i'm pretty and haven't been called the wrong pronouns except once.
Makes me wonder though living in a place like San Francisco, are they just that liberal, with a sense of liberal pity or are is that who they really see me as. My mother is beautiful, i feel i got screwed here hell whatever.
I also really hate my f'n shoulders, i wish they would just get narrow and stop being as$holes, ugh.
Transphobia tires me, it get's better, it's getting better that's all fine and dandy but i don't see complete freedom in my lifetime and that feels like a waste of life, damn...i'm sick all the time too.
My mom, i love her to death but she's so cranky nowadays, just a year ago she was my rock, a smiling face that always told me to be positive and to smile after june it seems the roles have changed and i hate it.
let's see, well that seems to be all folks...oh and my poetry sucks, everytime i try to create something it just fails or i'm the only one that thinks it's a great idea, silly foolish girl.
