Some of my friends and acquaintances at their 50s or 60s, sometimes say to me that they envy me, not for my beauty or health, but for being able to do what I really want to do. Most of them have maintained successful and exemplar career in various areas. Now they become a kind of leader in their own arena. But, they say that they have studied and worked hard for others, not for themselves. They indeed want to do what they really wanted to do as they grow older. But they say they still can not do. One of high-ranking government officers once said to me that he also wants to have shoulder-length hair like me, but he still can not do. He said that he is afraid that he may regret his lack of courage in his later life.
Sometimes newspaper and magazines here report those stories that a few brave men started travelling around the world by their motorcycle or car, after quitting their job. One of my colleagues (academic professor) used to say that he always wanted to be a rock singer, and he still wants, but can not. Some go to Nepal to climb the pristine high mountains.
A few of my friends call me 'my way' person. My job is very stable and I already got a tenure position, securing a pension enough for my and my wife's later life. I have sustained my kids without any serious problem, albeit, it was not perfect. My family think that I have done everything as a dad and a husband. Then, is it wrong that I start enjoying what I really want to do without harming any person?
Yes. Sometimes some people bla bla that my wearing skirt can be bad for education of my kids or students and jeopardize my careers, and all other those classical and ubiquitous remarks on transgender.
Fortunately those negative remarks have steadily decreased, and nowadays I seldom hear those negative statements. They accept or acknowledge my right to express myself, and at least do not oppose to it explicitly.
barbie~~
