I'm in some hard times..

[acbonnett]

...and that would be?

When did you go through your trans?

[Emileeeee]

I'm on a very slow pace, but I guess I realized it was time to start while I was still active duty. It's why I'm not still active duty. They found out.

I was young and had gotten to a point where I felt like I had to get started right away. Everybody kept telling me to just wait till the end of my enlistment, which was only 2 years out (I was on a 6 year enlistment), but that sounded like an eternity for me. Luckily I still got an honorable discharge, but if you can make it through the entire enlistment without getting that itch, the rewards will be worth the wait in my opinion. I find people hire me sometimes just because they were also marines or they were in the same MOS as me.  I'm also a civilian contractor to the military now, something that could not have happened without my service.

[acbonnett]

What was you MOS?

[acbonnett]

And you were in the core for a good while. I appreciate your service.

[Emileeeee]

0323

[acbonnett]

Which was what? Infantry?

[Emileeeee]

Yeah with some specialization.

[acbonnett]

Right on. I have a couple friends leaving July for the corps to become Combat Engineers. To bad I couldn't get them to join in with me cause I really don't want to be rocking the vagina cap alone lmao

[acbonnett]

 Wait. Youre SF? 0323 recon marines ?

[Emileeeee]

That may work in your favor. They know the facade right now. If you get to a point where you feel the need to transition and they're right there with you all the time, it may make it much more difficult on you than it needs to be.

[kelly_aus]

Another sad fact of life..

Very few people actually ever get to live the life they had planned as a child/teen..

[Robyn37]

I felt the same way when I joined the Navy. I did 8 years and it was very hard dealing with my feelings because I was very alone and unfortunately if you wish to serve you have to keep it a secret. Hopefully that changes soon, but that is the reality of the situation right now. I am pretty lucky to be alive right now, that is how difficult it was at times.

I do not regret my service though. If you can make it through the tough times, the pride you will feel will be totally worth it. The benefits of military service are also excellent, and are going to help me with my transition.

Look up Kristen Beck, she has a movie called Lady Valor that you can watch on Amazon instant video. She is a retired Navy Seal that transitioned, and is pretty much the definition of bad@ss lol. I also have some pretty manly tattoos (big naked woman on my chest lol) but I still really like them, and I think tattooed women are becoming more popular and attractive, at least in my opinion 

Just know that you are definitely not alone, and I wish you luck in making the choice that is right for you!

[acbonnett]

Another sad fact of life..

Very few people actually ever get to live the life they had planned as a child/teen..

..damn...that was dark....but let explain this to you kelly. I don't give a flying fuc about those who couldn't nut up and follow through with their dream. That simple.

[acbonnett]

I felt the same way when I joined the Navy. I did 8 years and it was very hard dealing with my feelings because I was very alone and unfortunately if you wish to serve you have to keep it a secret. Hopefully that changes soon, but that is the reality of the situation right now. I am pretty lucky to be alive right now, that is how difficult it was at times.

I do not regret my service though. If you can make it through the tough times, the pride you will feel will be totally worth it. The benefits of military service are also excellent, and are going to help me with my transition.

Look up Kristen Beck, she has a movie called Lady Valor that you can watch on Amazon instant video. She is a retired Navy Seal that transitioned, and is pretty much the definition of bad@ss lol. I also have some pretty manly tattoos (big naked woman on my chest lol) but I still really like them, and I think tattooed women are becoming more popular and attractive, at least in my opinion 

Just know that you are definitely not alone, and I wish you luck in making the choice that is right for you!

Preciate you sacrifice Robyn. And yea, I believe that's just what I am going to do. I just need to work along side this feeling and one day, I can maybe transition

[Emileeeee]

..damn...that was dark....but let explain this to you kelly. I don't give a flying fuc about those who couldn't nut up and follow through with their dream. That simple.

I think you misunderstood what her meaning was there.

[Emileeeee]

I felt the same way when I joined the Navy. I did 8 years and it was very hard dealing with my feelings because I was very alone and unfortunately if you wish to serve you have to keep it a secret. Hopefully that changes soon, but that is the reality of the situation right now. I am pretty lucky to be alive right now, that is how difficult it was at times.

I do not regret my service though. If you can make it through the tough times, the pride you will feel will be totally worth it. The benefits of military service are also excellent, and are going to help me with my transition.

Look up Kristen Beck, she has a movie called Lady Valor that you can watch on Amazon instant video. She is a retired Navy Seal that transitioned, and is pretty much the definition of bad@ss lol. I also have some pretty manly tattoos (big naked woman on my chest lol) but I still really like them, and I think tattooed women are becoming more popular and attractive, at least in my opinion 

Just know that you are definitely not alone, and I wish you luck in making the choice that is right for you!

Being in the military was also a lifelong dream for me. I just let the other me come a little too much to the forefront. If I had been born later, maybe I could have served as the other me. Nothing I can do about that though. I also think the tattoos look good on you. It makes me feel better about mine. I've been avoiding sleeveless because of them.

[Emileeeee]

Wait. Youre SF? 0323 recon marines ?

Yes. Although that wasn't part of the lifelong dream. That was the "I need to man up" part.

[acbonnett]

I think you misunderstood what her meaning was there.

No I understood it clearly. Yes people don't get to do what they want to do. But I am, so I don't need someone buttering me up for I won't break down if I decide to trans and not enlist.. The ball is already rolling. This Hardcore feeling is one of those things I'll have to just axcept.

[awilliams1701]

I've been there myself. I struggled in high school for being a nerd. I couldn't even deal with the transgender issue so I repressed the crap out of it until now 15 years after I graduated. I was suicidal. Now I'm living my life. I love being me. No one can take that away from me. A couple days ago a car pulled up next to me while I was walking me dog. The entire family tried to make fun of me. I didn't give a crap. That day was nearly perfect. I absolutely loved it and wouldn't even change that encounter. It took a while to get here, but believe me it does get better.

Society isn't the issue for me. It's that thought of pushing the self-destruct button on my future goals in life.
I've built myself up to be a man's man while bearing the same constant thought of who I feel I really am. I could go in detail but I doubt you guys want to hear my life story on this..

[Devlyn]

Hi Andrew, my MOS was 16P. The best place to meet Susan's veterans is Roll Call

I try to herd all the service members over there! 

Hugs, Devlyn