First of all bare with me on this topic, it may raise a few eyebrows and get a few annoyed reactions but here goes.
Now I, for all my life have fully identified as being female and just grown to accept the fact that I am in a male body. In the last couple of years I have been thinking about transitioning and that I would 'feel better' in a female body.
True, if I could wake up tomorrow and be a girl then I would choose to do so. However this interesting idea struck me.
Is it
Really so bad to be a girl stuck in a guys body? Don't get me wrong, I hate the hair growing in the wrong places, I don't like the fact that im fairly broad and obviously that I have the wrong parts but I was thinking is it really as bad as im making it out to be.
This brings up actually quite an interesting and somewhat unique situation. Me being a girl in a mans body, think about it, doesn't that actually provide quite alot of interesting benefits? First and foremost (from a realism sense point of view, not saying it's fair etc) Men / boys tend to have a much 'easier life'.
What do I mean by easy? I mean easy in many situations such as (and bear in mind if I was to transition I would be a tomboy anyway) what to wear, thinking about what other people think about how I look, people won't look at me in pervy ways, I am much less likely to be sexually attacked, in alot of social situations my opinion isn't considered different because of my Sex, getting ready takes alot less time, I can (and do) look good without much effort at all, not as much is expected from men and generally they have more free lives.
Now also this hits on too me a actually quite strange feeling and one that makes me blush a little
It is quite a mindblowing secret right? I mean I Know for a fact that inside (mind, soul, spirit, whatever you want to call it) I am a girl, yes a bit of a tomboyish girl but thats the way I have always from my earliest memory identified. I mean comon right? Yes it would be great for my body to fit my personality but isn't this somewhat getting the best of both worlds?
What I mean is I really crush on guys and girls (since coming out I am alot more open about the guy side) , I have been in relationships with both etc. I actually find it quite fun to by eyeing up a hot looking guy knowing full well im a Girl but too him on the outside guy, now this sucks in the way that he probably wont be attracted to me, but the look I have recently alot of people have asksed me if im a girl or a guy
Trying to explain this feeling is difficult, and as I said if doctors approved it I probably would transition but the more I think about it, why really is it considered so bad to be in this body? I have all the benefits of being a girl on the inside, liking things that girls like, I have a personality (already told by psychiatrist) that matches up to a girl from emotions to humor etc but I have the added benefits of being safe, secure and having an easier life in this body? Theres days where I stand in the mirror and look at my flat chest and pull a
face but theres other days where (now this sounds really weird) actually sometimes even get hot and flustered looking at my own body? Because it feels like almost looking at another person
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The bottom line: I think people in general are too concerned about the Binaries of the genders and what they can and cant be doing. In '''' Reality '''' I can do all the things that a girl would do, no I don't want to dress up like a girl nor do I have too? I think when people just focus on the clothing / makeup aspect they are trying to
prove too themselves that they are female and other people.
I know I am a Girl and I am in the body of a guy. So what? Maybe one day ill transition, but does not being a girl stop me from doing anything that a girl would do? Nope. It does impact the way other people perceive me, but in alot of situations it's better to be perceived as a man. Maybe like a sad when mr hottie
walks down the street and doesn't notice me its a bad sad, but when mrs hottie smiles back at me then
Be yourself, what you are on the
inside is the most important, you don't have to prove anything to anyone in the form of your actions or your physical appearance.
