I've been having these thoughts that I'm not as convincing as my other trans friends, and that I don't stand a chance at passing in public. So living my life the way I'd like to feels nearly impossible at this point, and I just want to be like them because I know it'll make me happy. I know it's unfair to compare myself to them, because they started transitioning before I met them, and I've cried about this for a long time. As of late I've felt better about this, and stopped crying so much. I don't know exactly what it is I'm trying to figure out for myself, and that bugs me a little, but I do know that this is the kind of problem that I want to solve without surgeries, because I'm sure I can feel better if I had all the answers I need. again I don't know exactly what it is that's bothering me so much, but I figured I might feel better about putting this out there so that it's not just in my head.
