I am struggling with the idea of makeup. I know it helps a lot with passing but I think I am part of those who find it frustrating and a bit of nuisance. I have fun putting it on because in a way it is a form of art but I don't really like having it on. I tried different kinds but had same results and it is not that it itches but more I just can't keep my hands from trying to wipe it off (like when you have sauce on your face). Lipstick is the worst too because I like biting my lips since they are always shedding.
Are there a lot who feel the same and still do it?
Also how much harm does painting nails cause to the nails? It is by far the only cosmetic thing I like having on, but I love how strong my nails are and I am afraid they will make them so flimsy I'll get sick of them..

( I look online and there seems to be so much more negatives than positive (Positive only being that it looks pretty). I am terrified to even try it on especially when I have been dying to paint nails. I don't have any female friends so I have really no one to ask besides the internet. I do have my mother but her nails are so soft they break by touching something really hard and I have her genes too and it sucks.
Oh and for my last question (I know a lot) what should I do if I want to have earrings. Should I pierce them early or when I start to feel more confident about my transition to others. I haven't told anyone besides one friend of mines and my mother. It just lately I have been feeling tired of playing the "boy" as I have been very discreet about it but I already have been getting the whole "are you gay? you been acting odd.". Which is so weird when I am clearly drooling over some really pretty asian girls. :< I guess people are strange.. Speaking of that
Jazz came to my job (for a reality show called "All that Jazz") and I was freakin' going flippin' crazy I lost my mind and I swear to GOD I went crazy.. I was telling everyone about her and they all had this weird look like "cool, I didn't know". However 3 of the guys were so mean about it and lying to others saying "her mother made her dress like a girl at age 4. They are sick". I tried to explain to them but they are very how I shall say close minded.
Anyways sorry this was so long

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