I just realized that I've passed the two year mark of membership at Susan's place. Just out of curiousity i reread my first ever post here, and few other earliest posts.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,140347.msg1137054.html#msg1137054that's my first ever post, and funny enough it contains a reply by me some time later, representing another milestone of my journey.
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,145531.msg1196664.html#msg1196664that's another of my earliest posts.
There are parts of both of those posts i made that i don't agree with now, there were things i hadn't fully understood by then. Such as the crush over a boy. Now i know there was no crush, just something my friends insisted on and made me believe. And the stuff I've said about my society, I'd like to take some of it back. I feel guilty that i put my friends on such a low standard. However, they've grown up now as well, so their broad view of gender identity maybe was not what they had back in the day.
Anyway, I now have zero hatred towards myself, that it even feels absurd to read that i had hated myself, had been through a period where i learned not to hate myself. Also I've gathered a vast knowledge on the subjects of transition and social status of trans community in our country. Also, I'm proud to say that the terrified teenager who was huddled deep in the closet deciding never to come out or transition, has now come out to three friends, and is seriously considering how and when i should start the transition.
This is Yet another milestone i guess. Few years later i might read this article and share it with you and feel even prouder of my journey.
Thank you wonderful people of Susan's place, for helping me live a life of my own. I'll forever be in your debt.
