Its time

[ladypeel]

Hello Ladies,

This is my first post on a journey I am just about to start. I am 36 now. After years of holding it in and repressing the thoughts I have I have decided to start my journey. It's been a a long road as I'm sure it is for so many of you. You have all really inspired me. Reading your stories. People of give advice and just the love you have for eachother .It has made me feel at home and gave me the courage to come out of my depression that I was trapped in. I must admit I got to the lowest point I could .Blaming everything else and not tackling the real issue on how I felt inside.

Anyway as I said the am out of reading and research I have been doing over the years makes me feel like an expert but I would just like to say hello and if anyone has any advice or wants to say hi I would appreciate it. I have a doctor's appointment to come out should I say so I am hopeful this is the start of me and I am super excited. my head is so all over the place you don't know how long it took me to figure out the security questions lol. Maybe I should be a blonde. Always liked that idea hehe

Thanks lovely ladies.

Lady Peel

I know it's a silly name but I like it. Sorry

[Laura_7]

Hello and welcome 

Well I think the name is nice 


hugs

[Jacqueline]

Lady Peel,

Welcome. Hi.

Yeah. I was in denial for about 42-50 years myself...

Joanna

[Kellam]

I agree, it is a cute name. Also, welcome and congratulations on finding your way to where you are. I just turned 37 and always love coming across others my age who are beginning their journeys. There are more than a few of us Carter babies floating around here. If you are not from the US I just mean the late 1970's. Anyway, I am finding my late 30's a wonderful time to transition, I hope you do too. See ya around the forums!

[AudreyMichelle]

Hi ladypeel! Looks like we are in the same boat. I just started posting today too and had such a hard time with those questions. I was just so scared/nervous/excited to post that my brain couldn't process them.

Congrats on starting your journey!

[ladypeel]

Hi ladies,

Thanks I like it.

I'm from Scotland but I know what you mean. Still a 70s child .

It's nice to hear about people starting at the same time. Really gives you that support you need. Wish I had tapped into this resource earlier but I guess it all comes together when the time is right.

Can you tell me how you ladies started your journeys or are starting them? What you are hoping to achieve? My main goal is to find that calm people talk about and to love my new girl body. However that shapes up to be .Just greatful we can do it and it is getting more acceptable in society .I don't feel I need to dress like a girl but I do really look forward to it .Have been so jealous for years and love looking at the cute outfits .

Another cheeky question for those of you that are a little further on. How do you find your mind? Are you totally in the groove for girl thoughts and those male thoughts have left the building? Really hope that comes for me.
Thanks again girlies .

[LizK]

Hi LadyPeel

The dominoes all took a tumble in my life about a week ago, all the stuff, I used, to deny who I was, turned out to be little more than fabrication, so when one excuse took a tumble the rest were not far behind.

So I like you are left with the question where at 51 do I even start? This is where I have started....
I have started by transforming my "Man Cave" which is really just a spare room that I have my gaming rig set up in to be my new Girls space. So far have just cleaned and removed clutter...I must say Sarah is far more fastidious about this than my male self ever was...hence the mess. I am going to try my hand at feminising the room without going over the top. I will have this space sorted out my tomorrow along with a few other things I need to get organised.

I am going to start on Monday a new morning and evening ritual to include a skin car regime...nothing fancy.

I am going to get a hair color that is close to my own natural color and get rid of the grey,

I am going to start by removing the very little body hair I already have,

I am going to start to paint my nails in clear nail polish and probably a color on my toes...

I am going to start wearing crop tops under my male outer clothes

I have bought enough new underwear so that I do not need to use my male stuff,

I have no got both ears pierced so I can wear earrings properly....

...not sure if that is where you want/can start but I kind of thought, it is such a daunting task to even start this and I don't just want to "frock up"....yet... so what can I do that is going to impact/be seen/be known by no one apart from me. As my confidence grows I may start to wear a little makeup or perhaps more feminie tops and just slowly build from there so that the change is gradual...by this stage hopefully I will be close to getting HRT and I can look at going full time...maybe in 1-2 years as a guess.

Depends on how well the therapy goes and how quickly I can adapt to the changes I make... could take much longer  than I expect, I need to pace myself with my family and their part in the journey as well.

Just the way I am starting, don't know if it right or wrong but at this stage all of what I have said is quite doable with minimal need for anyone else to know.

Good luck on starting

Sarah T