I will post, finally.
Yes you are a very attractive woman. There is no doubt of your successful physical transition. But happiness?
That is a different matter. Transitioning into your affirmed gender may not bring happiness, as seen in the self harm and suicide rates for post op females; they are only slightly lower than pre ops.
In may case, and please this is not preaching, I changed my life interests, I got help for and identified issues in life that made me unhappy. I changed my life to eradicate those issues, some were successful, some not. But I decided that transitioning was not the be all of my happiness, I needed a different transitioning to become me. Not the physical me but the person I wanted to be.
It was much harder to do that than accomplishing my physical changes.
Yes I carried a sack full of PTSD that needed to be dealt with, but dealing with that was not enough, I needed to immerse myself into being me; ruthlessly eradicating a past life and rebuilding myself.
I can say that I no longer recognise my past self. We have no similar interests and do not mingle in the same societal areas. There is nothing in common with him and me, even in common areas such as employment - I am a different person, I approach everything in a different manner to him.
I certainly don't recommend my approach to all, but it has worked for me.
I hope you find your happiness. It took me a long time and much effort but was worth it.
Cindy
