Been here over a year? Relate to your first post?

[Sammy]

First post you had you gutted so the actual location is still in view, but there is nothing in the post.

I know... I could not delete it entirely (like I did with about of 50% of my posts then, because other people had already posted afterwards, so I just cleared everything there.  It is quite ironical, but it was Grace who somehow noticed what was going on there, stepped in and sent me supporting PM  .

[Lizandri Roth]

"Hi everyone!  I've been following this community for a while now.  I'm from a very small town:  Outjo, Namibia. (It's in Africa for those of you who don't know  )
This is my first post because I'm actually pretty scared because I've never asked anyone to comment on my looks, partly because I never loved me in the male form.  But just recently I moved out of my parents home and I finally had the chance to experiment with my 'other side' and boy did I love it."

That was my first post, and man did I come along way since then.  It's the responses on the pictures that I posted with that message that set me on my journey with so much confidence and gave me the strength to become who I wanted to be.  Now, 2 years later, and 5 months on HRT.  If it wasn't for the support and responses I got from this community on that post and the pictures I probably would still be hiding away from the world, very unhappy and not wanting to live.  Thanks for giving me the boost then that I needed to be where I am now.

[barbie]

My nickname is barbie and probably and hopefully some of people in this forum remember me. I guess I am an M2F transgender or an androgyne. I am a dad of 3 children and have seldom worn men's dress for the last 5 years.

My wife, parents,  colleagues, friends now mostly accept my crossdressing, despite some initial difficulties. What I lost was my masculine authority, and what I got was a lot girl friends. Girls no longer hesitate to talk to me regarding their personal issues. I like to chat with girls regarding cosmetics and fashion. I am popular among girls, and of course my male friends always support me.

Regarding my children, my eldest son does not like my wearing very-short miniskirt. He sometimes shouts like "Dad, it is too short!". Accepting his request, I seldom wear skirt, not to mention miniskirt.

I am a marathoner, and I finished a 42-km full-course a few weeks ago, and I am going to run a half course tomorrow morning.


Thanks for your attention,

Not so much change since then.
Nowadays my eldest son does not care about my wearing bikini in beach, not to mention miniskirt.
Still, my family prefer my wearing longer dress, and my friends and colleagues, too.

barbie~~

[abd789]

Hello everyone, my name is Rita, Its been a long time since I have been on here

I, as a lot of us do, tried to shake of this thing we call ->-bleeped-<-

and as most of know or will find out, it doesnt go away

so here I am back again and hope to hang out for a while

My name comes from the Japanese suffix for cute when added to a name or word in case you were wondering

This came a year or so after my last "purge"....

I dumped everything I had that was girly and forgot about it all for a year.

yes it came back... then between that post and today... I tried to shake it again, maybe for the
5th time in my life....?

I will not throw away my girl stuff again... that I promise to myself
Im in deeper this time around and have never been this close to kicking
the door wide open. 

[Lady_Oracle]

Mine are pretty sensitive right now.They ache as I type this: such blissful pain

LOL my boobs still ache after all this time blissful pain indeed past self.

[Dee Marshall]

I've only recently, consciously, realized I'm a trans-woman. I've always been melancholy, knowing something was wrong. I grew up in a very working class, binary, black and white, right or wrong environment. I've had occasional flashes of knowing, of understanding, but quickly repressed them. I was genuinely surprised last December when I finally admitted to myself that at heart I'm a lesbian woman and not the man I seem to be.

So, no, no real choice except self denial, self delusion, and health destroying stress. My choices after almost 55 years of denying the truth to myself are to continue that or risk everything and be myself. I'm generally open about everything in my life with everyone, except...

I've been married to a wonderful woman who I love dearly for 34 years. I've told a few people, but not her. I DON'T KNOW HOW.

I'm so very scared!

Dee

I definitely recognize myself in this. Only a few, major, things have changed. I'm no longer afraid and I'm much better educated. When I first got here I was unclear as to whether "transman" or "transwoman" applied to me. I was always the type to face tough choices head on. When I realized my condition it didn't take long to decide to address it. You all have become very dear friends and I'm grateful that I landed here.

[Joelene9]

This is my first post on Susan's Place Forums. I am a M-F transgender in my late 50's.  I had experience with the massage method for a year plus using phyto-estrogens pre-HRT.  I have to agree with chrishoney on a lot of the points made. Certain types of massage works better on the older M-F TG's and the results are more noticable in men than the biological women because we started with nothing. I didn't even had pecs! The phyto + massage worked for 3 months and leveled off at a sub-A cup for the rest of the year. I had some sensitivity below the nipples at first, then disappeared. The rest of the symptoms I experienced will be put in another appropriate thread.

I am on HRT for 3 months now and the results without the phyto + massage is striking! The sensitivity under the nipples reappeared after the first week of HRT and has widened and deepened with more breast tissue growth since. I may try massaging once the breast development progresses a little more.  I am a sub-B cup now and growing. The A-cup bras will not fit my wide base boobs, it is like fitting a small Dixie drinking cup on a softball! The boobs fit better in a B-cups better and with less headspace!
Joelene

I had been lurking about a week on this forum and others. I had experience using the herbals and phytoestrogens and had to answer to one of the nagging questions around at the time. Still sub-B size though.
My second entry with a proper introduction:

Hello,
  I am Joelene, a M-F transgender. I am in my late 50's and had GID problems for over a half century now! I was raised in an era which TG's was placed in the same group as Homos (this term was before Stonewall and the term "gay"). Even the playground admonitions back then suggested that awful things will happen to people like me. I didn't even hear about Christine Jorgenson until the mid-60's when she showed up at a local TV talk show that was in prime time.  This is my first exposure to the TG experience and that I was not alone!
  I been to therapy on and off since the late 70's for the GID. The therapists back then either wanted to exorcise this or told me to go at it alone.
  I've been on HRT for the past 3 months for GID and for an uh-oh with the prostate.
  I chose this site for the TOS over those others, I'm prudish and I don't like "dirty" sites.
  I am a Christian M-F and I believe that the Bible says God does allow for us and we TG's as a majority are not gay. I feel closer to God now.
  I have not crossdressed since I snuck on some of my mother's stuff when I was a child and was caught. I may do so as this progresses and I show some more feminine features. I do not know how far I will go with this. It depends on my attitude and the condition of the prostate, PSA test in April.
  I have never dated because of the GID and the relationship problems it would cause with the women, yet, I am still romantically attracted to them.
  The 3 month experience with HRT has been all positive. No mood swings as of yet, no self criticism from the slightest boo-boos since month one. The visible prostate problems was erased since week two! The GID anxiety has disappeared. I come out to people more and I feel that I am becoming less introverted.
  I came out with my siblings this past Xmas with the HRT treatment for GID and the prostate. By younger brother admitted that he  is taking T for his prostate. They're stunned at this time but still are talking to me in a positive tone.
  I hope to gleam more knowledge and support from this group. It has been a long trek.
  Thank You,
  Joelene.

I found out later that my whole family including aunts, uncles and cousins knew since around 1977 when I came out to my mom. HRT is keeping my dysphoria and PSA levels down. Still presenting as male, my friends and relatives noticed the softening of my features and the long silver ponytail. With the clues my older relatives and my late mother has given me that I might be a DES son. A possible cause of Gender Dysphoia as most evidence of DES as the culprit is anecdotal and done mostly on lower animals. I have answered TG surveys on this subject in the past 2 years.
  Susan's has been a good site for me.

Joelene