Went to my gender therapist today, and she diagnosed me with Gender Dysphoria. On the second trip. Finally, I have virtual legitimacy in my reality. Okay, so it feels more legit. Like I needed to hear that from someone other than myself.
So, now what?
I told my wife of 4 years, and she said that the GD could mean that I'm just bigender, and even if I felt male occasionally, that I couldn't be totally Trans*.
It's a journey, this life we live.
The idea of Transition was a hard pill for me to swallow, and it took a while for me to digest the idea... But I'm already on board waiting for the E train. She's still at genderqueer station.
I've got a recommendation for a closer therapist, and we're gonna try to pursue couple's therapy. Hopefully, this closer therapist can find a queer-friendly endo and GP too.
It's tough being Trans* and still stuck at the halfway point. I want to transition eventually, but she doesn't want me to change.
As the above moniker under the Susan's logo refers, it's a delicate balance on this sharp edge of a knife.
Baby steps, baby steps...
