MTF?????

[ducky ~ day]

latey esp after starting reading True Selves i been getting this deep feeling and thought that i want to be a girl thou i dont feel like one that is traped in me i been told that i am not TS cuse i am ok with my male body. I do not love it but i do nto hate it, and aslo i dont feel like a woman inside me but WANT to be one. its hard ot say i dont relly feel like a woman thou i do feel like i want to be one.

I know i dont feel right if i have a male char in games or male name on the net with e-mail ims and forums i feel right with female / unsex names.

[NickSister]

Do you feel that you are a boy?

[ducky ~ day]

Do you feel that you are a boy?

cant say i do if i had to say how i feel i would say  i feel that i am somewhere in the middle of Androgyny and MTF

[cindybc]

Hi Ducky~Day


I don't know much about androgyny except I have met some people that I was not certain which sex they were so possibly there are more androgynous people around then we really think. The clothes they wear and their facial features and mannerisms doesn't really give to many clues so one would be hard pressed to make a definite conclusion. I worked 20 years as a social Worker and have encountered a good many variety of different people with different hang ups and also had the blessing and opportunity to continue working with these people as Cindy for 8 years. Unfortunately I have never had the privilege of working with TS or androgynous people but I am aware of the fact that it is not a very nice place to be

I am not certain that in the case of TS has any similarities or not but maybe to a point. Prior to transitioning TS  may have closely experienced a similar part to androgen while doing the siting on the fence thing and being hard put trying to make such a decision. To often the fear drives one back up on the fence. Eventually the need becomes overwhelming and intolerable and one needs to make a rational decision as to which gender one wants to transition into. To often this awful fear can put a TS back on the fence for many more years. Once we know what we need to do and muster up the guts to go through with it, this is all part of the gender reassignment therapy.  This is after all going to be the gender that you desire to be for the rest of your life, and this is the gender you feel the most comfortable with. In our case there is simply just no choice ore least way there is only one choice to choose from. One can't do the sit on the fence deal indefinably, we need to do something, If not then unfortunately one can end up pushing up daisies.

The best advice I can offer you is to find a shrink or a therapist that knows and specializes in gender dysphoria.  Once you learn who you are withing then you will know the outer apart of yourself. I supposes and I do pray that you find the trail you seek  that suits you for your new journey.   

[NickSister]

Do you feel that you are a boy?

cant say i do if i had to say how i feel i would say  i feel that i am somewhere in the middle of Androgyny and MTF

Well, this is a good start I reckon. At least you know what you arn't so you can move forward. Not sure if this will help, but you could try them out for size. Decide one day that you are a woman - and just be it - do the lawns, wash the dishes, go shopping, talk to others. Don't do anything particulalry special, just take comfort in being and don't focus on your appearance.

You say you feel somewhere between MTF and Androgyne. For the moment you could just assume that is what you are, lets call you a Famdrogyme or something, ignore the conventional labels - work out how you want to live in that space, what you require to feel happy, explore, study, examine, and live it. Maybe this will help you discover if it feels right to you inside.