my name is jordan

[jordmungand]

hello!
i am new to here. my name is jordan!
=)

i have been occasionally directed here when i google some helpful tips for ftms, and i finally decided to create an account here.
i am 16, a closeted female to male, so i'm pre-everything.
long story short, i've discovered the term transgender at a very young age, but because i'm stupid i thought only guys can turn into girls until i heard of thomas beatie (...even then i thought he was a biological male who for some reason got pregnant). but it wasn't until another year that i realize "if guys can turn into girls, girls can turn into guys!"
i was... a really smart kid okay.
then i started identifying as male, at first because i thought it would "protect" me from internet predators my parents always warned me about, but then it was because i was comfortable with it.
anyway, i was around 10 or 11 when i made this decision and i'm still sticking with it. guess it's not "just a phase"...

i came out to my school social worker over email and she wants to talk to me face to face. this is the first time i will be talking to someone who is not my peer about my gender identity face to face, although not the first time coming out to a high-up (i came out to my english teacher first).

thanks for reading =)

[V M]

Hi Jordan 

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V M

[LordKAT]

Hi Jordon, welcome to Susan's.

[TG CLare]

Welcome to Susan's Place, Jordan.

I wish you much love and luck on your journey. If I may, I will give you a little bit of advice. That is to take it slow and be sure of things but it sounds like you have a good idea who you are. Make a plan and go with it but you aren't alone so feel free to ask questions here and have faith with your school social worker.

Love,
Clare

[Devlyn]

Hi Jordan, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm up near Boston. Get busy posting, your words are going to help somebody else out down the line.    See you around the site!

Hugs, Devlyn

[jordmungand]

thank you, everyone!

i spoke with my school social worker, except that she didn't have anything useful to say other than try and make me question my decision. i don't blame her, she might think i'm confused, still, or that she's worried about surgeries. it appears to me that she thinks i'm a tomboy, even though i have grown increasingly dysphoric due to female pronouns.

i don't suppose i would have another chance to talk to her. i'll just stick with trying to get treatment after school.