hello!
i am new to here. my name is jordan!
=)

i have been occasionally directed here when i google some helpful tips for ftms, and i finally decided to create an account here.
i am 16, a closeted female to male, so i'm pre-everything.
long story short, i've discovered the term transgender at a very young age, but because i'm stupid i thought only guys can turn into girls until i heard of thomas beatie (...even then i thought he was a biological male who for some reason got pregnant). but it wasn't until another year that i realize "if guys can turn into girls, girls can turn into guys!"
i was... a really smart kid okay.
then i started identifying as male, at first because i thought it would "protect" me from internet predators my parents always warned me about, but then it was because i was comfortable with it.
anyway, i was around 10 or 11 when i made this decision and i'm still sticking with it. guess it's not "just a phase"...

i came out to my school social worker over email and she wants to talk to me face to face. this is the first time i will be talking to someone who is not my peer about my gender identity face to face, although not the first time coming out to a high-up (i came out to my english teacher first).

thanks for reading =)

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V M

Hi Jordon, welcome to Susan's.

Welcome to Susan's Place, Jordan.

I wish you much love and luck on your journey. If I may, I will give you a little bit of advice. That is to take it slow and be sure of things but it sounds like you have a good idea who you are. Make a plan and go with it but you aren't alone so feel free to ask questions here and have faith with your school social worker.

Love,
Clare

Hi Jordan, welcome to Susan's Place! I'm up near Boston. Get busy posting, your words are going to help somebody else out down the line.    See you around the site!

Hugs, Devlyn

thank you, everyone!

i spoke with my school social worker, except that she didn't have anything useful to say other than try and make me question my decision. i don't blame her, she might think i'm confused, still, or that she's worried about surgeries. it appears to me that she thinks i'm a tomboy, even though i have grown increasingly dysphoric due to female pronouns.

i don't suppose i would have another chance to talk to her. i'll just stick with trying to get treatment after school.