Hi, iv known about this place for awhile but haven't sought any kind of community until recently. Mainly because iv been putting things off most of my life and I want to start really figuring things out about myself. Currently im 24 and am looking around for a therapist who might have some answers/solutions but im also hoping to see what people similar to me have done, how they have felt, and so on.
Things for me started around the ages of 8 or 9 with wanting to be female, and so i secretly started cress-dressing shortly after. Its AMAZING i was never found in my sisters clothing although i often got asked why her clothing was in my room, i figure they knew about cross-dressing at some point or another but never really mentioned anything. Until i personally discovered what it was for i didn't even want my male parts.
As i grew older i never really felt the guilt i hear a lot of people talk about, once i had a income and started buy my own clothing but never purged them. Even tho over time iv become more accepting of my male self, i never felt comfortable with my size and shape. One major bit of confusion is that iv grown somewhat fond of my guy bits, and have fallen into a somewhat indifferent stance on whats down there as long as its enjoyable

(and the fact that im still only sexually attracted to women) Another is that a few years after things started i became incredibly shy over my chest even tho its normal, and have a very strong feeling that i should have breasts.
There are a lot more things to cover but this is suppose to be an introduction and don't want to turn it into a 3 page wall of text, so once again hello and nice to be here.