Only some things will feminize. Obviously, skin, although that's slow going. Voice won't change. If you have had hair come in yet, that isn't going to change. If you built muscle, that will stay unless you stop using them. Seen conflicting stuff about growth--my endo says it will revert and I believe it probably does... eventually. Shark week will likely return (that is a non starter for me).
I'm 6 weeks on T and having some of the same feelings although we're all different. (Remember, some trans people never experience dysphoria, it's a typical symptom, not the sine qua non). I just think about my goals and they haven't changed a flip. Bye bye The Rent Tent, bye bye chest tumors, hello upper body strength, hello my own facial hair, hello my own face (I know it could take years for my face to change, but I want to know what I look like).
I know I'm a little genderqueer, but not the sort to do beard+boobs (maybe because boobs make me so dysphoric). I don't have any sort of negative reaction to bearded men wearing women's clothing. I'm not scared of being queer and frankly if I can get my body right I can be myself more than now where I'm ashamed of my body and super inhibited.
