Jennifer, your life is precious, and I know it sounds cliche, but I really believe it, and I sense you're such a strong and good hearted woman. No one should kill themselves especially not over stupid and ignorant (but also evil and full of hate) people.
This can be fixed. It's a battle you can win. We all can. It's not just your battle, it's every trans person's battle. We're with you.
Hugs again, Jennifer, and we're all willing to help and support you the best way we can, emotionally or in other ways.
JS