Wow, That went by a lot faster than I thought it would o.o
Month two didn't seem to have the same amount of progress month 1 had, but at the same time no growth is ever constant, or change for that matter. To start with I've noticed my emotions have been a bit more raw? Like in month one everything was happy and bright, my emotional range expanded that month from higher highs to lower lows and everything inbetween. This month has been the same but it's been a bit more mood swing happy. I've become more emotionally sensitive and have found that things that normally wouldn't upset me, now can bring me to the point of crying and I think I've cried more in the past two months than I have in the past several years. It was surprising to me when I was playing a game or watching a movie and then something happened in game that was sad and I just started crying. It was amazing because I've wanted to be able to do that for years. It's weird saying I'm happy being able to cry. So my emotional range is still continuing to change. Also my sex drive has completely vanished. I've gone roughly two weeks now without any kind of simulation or even a thought of the subject which is weird but refreshing.
mentally I have been doing fine. There hasn't been any doubts since I've started, and I've even been able to clear my mind easier and not have 52 different things going on at once. I have noticed my sexuality has become more bisexual. I started observing men and have been much more attracted to them too since month two. I'm also glad I have finally started to adjust to the speed of change, which is probably one of the most important things to learn is to be patient.
For physical changes, I've noticed my skin is a lot smoother than it was at the end of month one. I am also starting to really notice the hair on my body thinning (though it's kind of like thinning in patches? o.o). It was hard for me to tell but I could tell my hips have widen slightly too, but it's nothing to significant yet. My breasts, which has probably been the slowest things ever XD Have had some slight changes. My left breast bud finally started getting bigger. It's still slightly smaller than the right breast bud, but definitely bigger. as a whole, my breasts haven't gotten too much bigger yet. My left breast has grown as a whole a bit bigger, but still lagging behind the right breast. I want to say I could fill an A cup bra at this point but without official measurements I can't really say that yet. It unfortunately means I've had some stretch marks to go with the girls growth, but at the same time actually having breasts I can visibly see and feel make me so happy!! In terms of weight, well I seem to bounce between 226 - 233 every day. Before I started my journey, my weight was only going between 230 - 232, so just a random thing I've noticed. Also my taste buds seemed to be changing o.o Like before I loved the taste of certain things but now it's just not the same. Heck Rootbeer, my favorite soda, now just tastes meh, though that could be because I have almost exclusively been drinking nothing but water. My face has really started rounding out, and becoming more feminine. The skin is less oily so less to no acne now!!!! ^_^
I think the smallest change is my family. MY parents...just don't care. It's like nothing has changed. They place such a huge importance on how I look physically that they refuse to use gender pronouns. I have told them my triggers for dysphoria and asked them to please avoid triggering them the best they can and well, my father at the very least has been and said "I don't remember you saying that" And goes on his merry way without a care in the world. They don't think to ask how it's going and they think just asking "how are you" is enough to get me to talk about my journey. They also refuse to call me Scarlet or any nickname that is feminine, until my name is legally changed. My parents think that if they wait until I look more feminine, it'll make them more comfortable in calling me the correct gender pronouns, but until that point they won't even try, which is determined in their own eyes. My siblings on the other hand have been better. My brother, while not totally on board, tries to actually call me Scarlet, and use the correct gender pronouns, My sister Ashlin, is 50/50, she doesn't care about gender pronouns so she has stated she won't change her ways, and lastly my sister Olivia, has been on board 100% and has basically called me the correct everything. Outside family has literally told me to go to hell except for my aunt and her family who are totally on board with me. My mother though, doesn't understand where I stand because she doesn't care about gender, and any attempts to explain to her how it effects me and why, has basically been, "I don't understand" or just her repeating why until I just can't explain anymore or there just isn't an answer to why. So family has been the least changing aspect and is a good chunk of my days where I've cried.
All in all month two has been amazing and I can't wait for month three!!!
Oh and here is a comparison of day 1 to month 2.
Day 1
End of month 2
