Welcome, Karivh!

I am going on my first full week after being on and off HRT for many years. Nevertheless, I still remember when I was self-medicating my own HRT at doses that were never monitored by a healthcare professional, I felt all my anger and pent up tension seem to fizzle away.
Was it power of suggestion? Was it finally being content? Or was it that the testosterone had finally lost its grip over me? In my opinion, it was a mixture of all of those combined.
I'm a naturally effeminate homosexual male, so in my world, I found it easier to dress very "metro," get my nails done, gravitate toward the company and inner-bonding of women, wear female shoes, and ... well ... not outright deny who I was but not outright showcase it for everyone.
That's my life experience to date, and yours will vary greatly. Be proud of who you are, embrace your many qualities, and soak up all the resources you can as you travel down your own, unique journey.
Warmest wishes,
Princess