Hi everyone, It's my Birthday!!!

[Jenny0713]

Awesome Christine!  Congrats!


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[Rachel_Christina]

Thanks you guys, I haven't a clue what to expect!, hopefully the blood work gives me the go ahead! :3

[amberwaves]

That's fantastic Christine.  I already have my lab work done and my appointment with the endo is tomorrow.  Nothing abnormal in the results so I can't foresee any reason I won't get a prescription.  The last part of the wait is killer, isn't it?

[Rachel_Christina]

Ha I know Amber, but its over now, I can relax.
We all seem to have started around the same time, it crazy! :')

[Tasha_]

Yay Christine!!! I am so happy for you!!! I actually just now got an appt with a therapist.... I've got to figure out how I should proceed. But you all are doing awesome and I am glad you are all getting to take steps forward!!!

G'night ladies!!!

[amberwaves]

I'm glad to hear that you are going to see a therapist and figure things out more Tasha.  Turns out the rabbit hole was much deeper than you anticipated.

I walked away from my appointment with a Rx for Spiro and patches.  Unfortunately I won't get the patches until tomorrow.  There was a mix up and the dr office closed before the pharmacy could get it fixed.  At least I got the Spiro.  I would be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed, but at least I've started.

[Tasha_]

For sure, but my biggest problem is figuring out how to reconcile new life and old... that and am feeling a little guilty right now because my wife and daughter have both lost friends in the last week because of my identity. I know intellectually that it's not my fault, and that I am not in any sort of wrong, but, I can't help but feel bad, and that makes it even harder. Hopefully my therapist can help me to build an arsenal of tools to deal with everything a bit better and with less bitterness toward our bigoted and hateful society. Not to say it is all that way, just enough to ruin things for a lot of people.

[Rachel_Christina]

Hey girls!!, how is everyone?? Thought I would check in, pretty much 2 weeks on HRT already, not a thing to report though... lol
Hope yous are all doing ok
Hugs, Christine

[amberwaves]

Just over two weeks on hrt.  Skin is starting to become very soft and silky, especially on my legs.  They are softer than my wife's.  Breast buds are starting and one of my nipples no longer looks like a guy's nipple.  I still have sexual function, though morning wood is very occasional now.  Libido is still present.  It's not diminished, it's just easier to ignore.  My mood has leveled out considerably.  I can't say I'm happier, but the negativity and depression is far less deep.  Also, my moods stabilize much faster.  So far it's a good change.

[jujubes1986]

Just over two weeks on hrt.  Skin is starting to become very soft and silky, especially on my legs.  They are softer than my wife's.  Breast buds are starting and one of my nipples no longer looks like a guy's nipple.  I still have sexual function, though morning wood is very occasional now.  Libido is still present.  It's not diminished, it's just easier to ignore.  My mood has leveled out considerably.  I can't say I'm happier, but the negativity and depression is far less deep.  Also, my moods stabilize much faster.  So far it's a good change.

congratz

[Tasha_]

Congrats to you both!!! I am very happy for you!!! I am doing okay, have sewn the therapist twice now and they are willing to help me to do whatever I decide I want/need to.... life is still pretty alright for me....

[Jenny0713]

Glad to see you girls are moving along. I have been on spiro a little over a month now. Morning wood is a thing of the past if not rare. I hope to get my E by the end of August. Keep your fingers crossed!  Had two laser sessions so far on my face but no real results yet. Will just keep going. Take care girls.


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[Rachel_Christina]

Thats pretty cool you noticed all that Amber, I haven't noticed anything yet, maybe the odd tingle in my nipples, but that could be anything
My emotions haven't changed either.

I hope you and your therapist work out a sensse of direction for you Tasha, to know wher you are headed what you want and wher you see yourself down the line, I'm sure you will figure it out.

And thats nice to here Jenny, those bugers can be annoying ha,they mean no harm... but annoying all the same.
I wonder how Sarah is with school and all, hope shes alright

[Tasha_]

The facial hair is the absolute worst!!! Mine still grows way to fast, and I have been getting bad razor burn from trying to get a close shave lately. It is really making me nuts recently and making it hard to want to go as myself in public... buuut..... I am starting to get to the point of not really caring if people know that I am transgender.... as long as they use the right pronouns!!!

[Rachel_Christina]

Oh i know Tasha, it is the absolute most horrible thing big black ring around the mouth :@ 450 a session for me, its really hardto give that money away!
I haven't yet but I know I must

[Tasha_]

I am still waiting to borrow my moms no!no! and see if it helps at all....

[Rachel_Christina]

Is it a type of laser? Or tweezer effect?
If it tweezes im not sure its a good idea on beard D:

[Tasha_]

I think it's a home light pulse technology.... sometimes I wonder if I should ask about waxing my face lol....

[Jenny0713]

I know the feeling. I have had two laser treatments on my face and still have to shave twice a day if I want to go out at night as myself. Of course they all say it will take several sessions but I just wish it would go away!


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[SarahElizabeth1981]

Hi Girls,
   Been just over 5 weeks for me on Spiro and no idea when i will get E. as you both mentioned no more spontaneous erections although perfectly functional if i want. I think the biggest change is mental. I don't really have any erotic thoughts/fantasies anymore. I NEVER have any strong desire to have sex. Which is a big change from before. My nails are growing a lot slower now. And it sometimes seems like my body hair isn't growing as fast but I'm not really sure. I think i'm just being wishful 'cause I hate it so much. that's about it. sadly without E I'm not going to get any big feminizing changes. 

i stumbled across an interesting story of a CIS man that had grown breast and had all the feminizing effects of taking E but he wasn't transitioning. he went to doctor after doctor an none of them could figure it out. He finally went to a doctor that wouldn't give up... So as it turned out this guy was drinking 3 liters of soy milk a day and had estrogen levels higher then an average CIS women. I've been drinking soy milk for a long time but nowhere near that much and I don't plan to. however, I have increased the amount I consume to about a liter a day. I'm not really expecting any changes but I figure it can't hurt and if it boosts my estrogen levels even a little then that's a good thing.

On the bright side my name change is done. I'm so happy about it. all the major things are done, birth certificate, driver license, SIN (Social Insurance Number) banking, work etc. I also changed the gender marker so everything says i'm Female.  still got some things to update but nothing critical or at all urgent.

As for school christine, i withdrew from the program. I was having such a hard time getting through my studies. it just got too upsetting and depressing. after so many good experiences transitioning it seemed like it would be a waste to throw myself off a bridge because of school. So, no more school. I haven't eliminated the possibility of going back in the future but I need to work some things out. hope you all are doing good.

Sarah