Hi everyone, It's my Birthday!!!

[SarahElizabeth1981]

That's cool Jerrica. It's so amazing to hear someone change. nice to hear you have had such a good experience with your excercise. My concern was more change rooms and bathooms and such. but i was told to use the ones I identify with and that correspond to my drivers license. Like so many trans people, I think, it's my owns fears and insecurities probably.

I forgot to mention thank you for the compliments. people tell me that i will turn out great and frankly I think so too. But my fear that pops up every now and then is what if I'm wrong. At this point the only thing I want to change about my face is my nose. what if after being on hormones for a while I want to do my cheeks and chin and so on..... again fears and insecurities I guess but they are there. goodnight

[Rebecca]

Changing rooms I kinda cheat as while showering in the communal showers my body doesn't really fit into either category. Fortunately I use the swimming lockers downstairs and have my own RADAR key which let's me use the private disabled shower room. Whilst I don't identify as disabled the private facilities are nice.

Usually I just quickly jump in the car and shower at home like the rest of the girls but on days that I use the treadmill my body and gear are minging  (disgusting) so need to shower and change. Once I'm cleaned and dressed it's back out to the public area to dry my hair and do my face before catwalking out like I own the place.

If the shower was in private cubicles then it would be a no brainer same as loos, changing rooms or anything else.

After surgery I'll still be body conscious same as everyone else. I might get some cosmetic work at a later date but I'll be confident enough being naked in front of my fellow gym bunnies.

[Rachel_Christina]

Hey Girls,
Had our staff party last night, cours I went in guy mode, but with my greatly reduced beard shadow and other changes, the male fail was strong, and the older man opposite me on the table mistook me to be one of the girls, it was so funny, when they told him differently he was shocked and appologetic haha, I was glowing though.
I really did look rather femme, my hair looked amasing that night.
I wonder did any of the others think anything when they saw me, another pretend t kiss my hand joking, to get at my quiet female look. But its gotten so much better with HRT and really looking after myself. It was an amasing night that continued way on till nearly 5 o'clock in the morning.
Also a week ago, I got a pay rise, he even back paid me for two months work, and the overtime will also be reworked, and my 13th month Salary to will also benefit from this.
Last months pay check is twice the usual amount, we get two pay checks at the end of the year, not all companys do this in Switzerland, but alot do, and mines does, such a nice thing at the end of the year! :3
My brother also told his gf about me and she was totally fine with it, she kinda suspected it aswel.
I had studied with her before so she does know me.
All in all an epic week. I return to Ireland on Wensday for nearly 3 weeks, will be able to talk abit more with mother properly too!
Hope you are all well!

[Jenny0713]

That is awesome Christine!  God, I would kill to be mistaken for female while in male mode. Not sure if that will ever happen. My hair is getting close though. It's getting longer and has a nice curl in the back. From the front, it looks great but from the back, heat bald/thin spot is visible. Really want to stop using the wig as soon as possible.

Glad to hear about your raises too!  That's great!  Proves you are a valued employee. Feels good, right?


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[Rebecca]

Hey Christine good party. Loving the male fail but not surprised in the least.

Work stuff and money always helps. Fun times ahead with looks and money.

Family stuff is down right awesome ofc.

[Rebecca]

It's the morning after the works night out too. Relatively reserved (bit boring) but still had fun and it got better as I got along really well, I think, with one of the other girls. She's fun and gorgeous ofc so defo a highlight to the night.

Getting hit on is getting boring tbh I'd rather be with SO. Think she's coming around a bit more to the reality of us being together. Still hope she eventually picks me but we'll see.

[Rachel_Christina]

Thanks Jenny and Jerrica, it was truely amasing, my hair is what did it I think, and maybe my shape, I have started to change!
I'm still 65 kilos and my waist and hips are starting to show, even with what I was wearing!
Just so much confidence boosting, I was sky high!
You are still trying to see how things go with the mother of your kids Jerrica??

[Rebecca]

Loving you're still 65kg. Defo an inspiration to get my ass in shape.

Yeah but she really can't know anything for sure until after I heal from surgery. That's the most exciting and the scariest part of next year. She still struggles as she can't see me as a girl but got a new twist as she doesn't see me as a guy any more either which is actually good news.

As it stands I can't be as physically close to her as I'd like due my undesirable bits. After I heal my own issues will be fixed and my body complete. Only then can she fairly choose if she wants me.

I'm pretty sure she loves me and obviously I love her but that's not enough I want her to want me and above all else for her to be happy.

If the time comes and she does choose me I'll be the luckiest girl in the world.

[Rebecca]

Glad I specifically asked about the Spiro to Chet's office.
I've to stop that too. Kinda saw it coming tbh but was intrigued and hopeful when it hadn't said so on the earlier email.
Som had been absolutely lovely especially when I consider how much hassle I probably am with questions and requests she is still so nice to me.

Hotel switch was not a problem so I'm now going for a cottage at the Rama which I think will be nice for wandering about the garden and checking out the fountain. I also really like the idea of having Tesco deliver direct to my front door which is a major plus.

My Doc had checked out the list of requirements for surgery and told me he can do it all for me including the x-ray.
I'm so lucky to have him as my GP he's amazing.

Secured a bit more money too so I'm in the safe zone again annnnnnnd finish work on Friday for the year - Yay!!!!!

[Tasha_]

Hey ladies, glad to hear all the good news!! Just wanted to drop in and say hi.... Let you know everything is okay.... Hopefully I get more energy and join back in the thread soon... Love you all!! Gnight!!

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[Rebecca]

Sleep well and catch up once you've recharged.

[Jenny0713]

We love you too Tasha!


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[SarahElizabeth1981]

Hey girls,
         Super exciting news christine. I'm so happy for you.

  been a pretty busy week... going to the lab the doctor etc. So I saw the urologist on Monday. Apparently everything is looking good. the stones i had were the type normally 'caused by eating red meat. Good thing I've already cut back on the burgers. A girls gotta think of her figure now. hehehehe  I've also increased my fluid intake and make sure to drink water regularly so that should help keep things flushed out.

I see my doctor tomorrow. I can't wait to hear what my numbers are.  I'm hoping he will up my dose a little. More so I can put on a full patch then that I'm worried about my E levels. Although we'll see where they are at maybe I will be concerned. I think I mentioned I cut my patch in half to get the correct dose. I put a piece of surgical tape on the cute edge which works ok. But I put on a new patch just below where I had one before. a couple patches ago. I put it below where the other one was but the surgical tape went over where part of the patch was. it got soo irritated and was super itchy. when I took it off just where the tape was is all, not quite blistered, but it looks like hell. it dried out and the skin is flaking off like when you have a sunburn. it's weird. I've been careful where i Put them since.

I hope you girls are doing great. Love you all  goodnight

[Rebecca]

Good news Sarah and yeah defo watching the burgers........ well watching them disappear as I scoff them relentlessly. I'm so doomed. Diet cancelled for the rest of the year!!!!

Always love the numbers. 2 weeks to my next set. Still to decide on my post op dose then get excitement all over again until I get my levels spot on then testing will get scaled back to 6 then 12 monthly.

Got a missed call from GIC saying I've reached the top of the list so to call and make an appointment. I admit I smiled and laughed a bit as there is nothing left for them to do they've missed the whole show.

Emailed anyway just in case there is something they can offer. Got a nice wee email back thanking me for my honesty and leaving the door open if I need them which kinda confirms there's nothing they can do which is pretty awesome tbh.

Also it's good news for whoever is next on the list as their wait is now over.

[SarahElizabeth1981]

That is great Jerrica. I'm happy things are going good for you. definitely good for the next person too as you said.

I saw the doctor today. My testosterone levels plummeted as I expected they are at 2.6 which he said is where he would like to see them. The estrogen levels according to the lab results have plummeted. which he thinks was some kind of screw up at the lab. before i started using the patch my estrogen was 136. they took my blood this past monday so about two and half weeks after starting and they say it was at 30.  Which doesn't make any sense at all. screw up or not it has me a little freaked.

He doubled my dose though so hopefully that pushes it up. It also means I can use full patches so that should make it a little easier.   I really can't wait to do my blood work again. unfortunately my next follow up is two months away. it'll come fast though so the wait shouldn't be too bad.

take care girls.

[Rebecca]

Great news for the T and very odd about the E. Could cutting the patches have been reducing their effectiveness? Either way with being doubled up to the full patch your E should defo be going up.

2 months should fly by especially with Christmas and New Year to pass the time a bit. I'll be looking forward to your next set of numbers too.

[Jenny0713]

Happy Holidays all. I wish you all the best!  Talk more soon. Jenny


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[Tasha_]

Hope you all enjoy the holidays!!! I finally decided to start hrt, first dose yesterday. Can't wait to see how things go!!

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[Jenny0713]

Woohoo!!!'   Congrats Tasha!


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[Rachel_Christina]

That is great Tasha, it is a magical road!

I had flown back to Ireland and have been floored with the cold and everything. Been horrible.
So much exciting news to tell, but I haven't the time, too much family floating around! Lol
Have a great Christmas girls! :3