Hey all; click this video:
...and skip to 1:08 (whole vid is good of course, but 1:08 is the point of this thread).
The great Carmen Carrera basically explains that as Trans-Women, we are plunged into womanhood in a matter of months/couple years vs. cis-females who of course have had an entire adolescence to learn and figure out what it means to be a woman socially. Also how we kinda need to watch and study other females more acutely, to learn by observance (implied from vid).
...this is one thing, after being full-time a good while, I've yet to wrap my head around, but after pondering it, I see it now. Especially around men, I think I may come across too 'flirty' and I've yet to find an equilibrium between friendly yet ladylike. It's like, yeah I'm happier and that shows with smiles and my endless penchant for silliness and joking around, but it could totally be interpreted as sexual interest or, at worst, whorish behavior. Ideally, I'd really like to walk the fine line between being fun and alive, but also subdued enough to not give off unintended signals.
So essentially, I'm still learning, even if I didn't realize it and even if you're transitioned a solid 8 years, say, you're still only a very young adult in terms of your "second puberty" hehe.
Also, footnote, is Carmen Carrera amazing or what?? I hardly
ever get jealous or feel envy toward other girls and their looks/transition, but holy swizzle sticks... she makes me feel like a masculine gorilla. I get all triggered like this seeing her perfection:
Need some peanut butter now to accompany my loads of jelly.
