My unknown history

[nekoneko]

  I think something I don't remember happened to me during my first 5 years of life. I don't remember at all, but I have a good theory. 
Everything started to came out only when I had heterosexual relationships, pretty late. ..at 24 ...or not?
After psychology inquires and now psychiatric...I released that I fell in love in a way very platonic during first grade schools like just one who had some experience I think. 
The problem is "who" and "when" ...but my mother said when I was in a nun''s school..happened something.
I have also a story about that.
In the same school there was a friend of mine. When after many years first sow her, I had a lighting bolt...never happened either when I see some ex girlfriends around.  I went to female bathroom and sow her, so in some way I was punished and went to another school.
I don't remember anything of this period, but is a convincing history
Each girlfriend peed  in front of me...like they knew something and tried something for remembering to me this moment .
I think some androgynous aspect's of me could also be related to a secret hormone therapy during my childhood
How I tell this hypothesis to my psychiatric?
Anyone with these blanks holes in your childhood?

[Dena]

Welcome to Susan's Place. Your age wasn't in the post and unfortunately treatment for some of us who are in the 40 to 70 year range had treatments that wouldn't be standard today. As far as myself, I think I naturally ended up transsexual and the doctors had nothing to do with it. My problem with the medical community started after I attempted to located treatment as it was all still pretty new at the time. As for blanks, I have many from my early years but some became clear as I attempted to understand myself. The best you can do is ask anybody who remembers the early years to tell you some of the stories. Other than that, you go with what you feel now and don't worry about the past.

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[V M]

Hi 

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[nekoneko]

  Now i'm 29 and i'm coming out for transgender matter, by the way i think  could be aroused early if I had sex under 24. In my first years of school,  for example there were a friend who in recent years told me he always defended me. But I don't remember anything. 
Nobody would tell the truth
By the way I'm having strong flashbacks in my actual university and on buses..so I think I'm regreding