It's so hard to change your ways. I'm trying to be more rational, but every time I make progress, I seem to hit the reset button subconsciously and I feel like I'm back where I was.
I am happy with God, but what I want to be like is what semira said, I want to be able to have both science and faith.
Also, colleen M, I can't disagree with anything you're saying, I can see where you're coming from but it is not easy to change.