What is also upsetting for me is how my dad constantly reminds me of my mom's past errors, as if I am either somehow the cause of them happening or as if I alone can somehow fix them. Like just yesterday, the mere mentioning of my vomiting, due to medicine and not bulimia, sent him into the past and he immediately brought up my mom in a disgraceful manner about her own bulimia. So instead of arguing, I politely asked him to change topics and after a sarcastic comment he finally stopped his tirade rant against my mom. He talks about her addictions as if they are current and as if she decided to do them (like drinking, smoking, the bulimia). Just no support or sympathy what soever.....and he claims to still be in love with her even now while being married to another woman with whom he is separated from right now. What a class-A moron he is!
I wanted to punch him, but realized that he is not worth going to jail over. He has no idea I have this. He has no idea that it can be genetic and that it is not something people choose to do. He is a major contributor to my stress. He obviously suffers, not only from narcissism, but severe PTSD. It is so dreadfully annoying it makes me want to end my life sometimes. I am tired of being told that I never do anything right, that this and that would not have happened if I did this or that, that I should have done this or that....should, should, should, would, did,....he is a depressed sack of nothing cause he lives in past tense. He doesn't even live in the present. It is so pathetic that it makes me sick to my stomach!
