am currently seeking any good advice for my situation. Me (FTM) and my ex girlfriend has known each other for 8 years we dated for 5 years with 2 years of seeing other people and we were back together until she broke it off with me a month ago. She told me at the time she needed space to figure out if she could be happy with me dispite all the choices she'd have to make with kids, and her judgmental family. They never liked me pre-t so you can understand why we didn't tell them, I am now almost 5 months on T. I found out that she was talking to a male at her school and that she broke up with me for him. Fast forward a month she calls me crying saying she's sorry and how she needs to see me and talk in person. I gave in and we seen eachother, when I see her she has a engagement ring on from the guy she left me for only a month ago. We talked fussed jacked eachother up then we made love to my understanding, we talked for hours into the next day. She tells me before she leaves that she needs to be with me and she regrets leaving me firstly. I gave in, that was 3 days ago I talked to her earlier in the day and she tells me she's confused, she tells me that she doesn't know what to do anymore so she starting crying again and there's when I knew her choice was made. I told her goodbye finally, and it hurts. Not as bad as when she left me a month ago but it's still pain, my choice has always been made and it was her no matter the circumstances or costs it was always her! We broke up a month ago, why is it hard for you to choose me? Giving the 8 years we've known each other it should've been easy. I told her that if she's still confused she will never know and all she kept saying was she will always love me. The days we spent together were ok she cried the whole time mostly but half the tears were because she happy I don't hate her and the other half because she was so apologetic she was drowning herself in her tears and I was there to forgive her once again. I forgive and I end up hurt every time I do, she's afraid of making wrong choices based upon her religion, and she's afraid to lose her family if they'd found out who I was. Love is sacrifice and right now I'm tired of making the sacrifices! To let 8 years go so fluidly you must be special and if she's found the right one, why was I the stepping stool? I feel used, and worthless.
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