Another member here I noticed has an interesting avatar comment "playing the hand I've been dealt." Indeed, and bravo to that person !
I am taking this several steps farther. I feel I am increasing my happiness by "dealing myself ongoing new cards."
Yeah, I didn't end up fully transitioning till I was in my 50's. THOSE cards I cannot change in the sense that as far as I know, no one has invented a successful time machine, as such, yet. In some ways it is too bad I didn't transition at age 19 or 20 when I had my own bras = no Internet in those days, didn't know about transitioning, no info was available to me, only confusion. If I HAD, very likely I could have had a professional career as a model.
HOWEVER.....
Medical-grade HRT hormones have been an absolute physical miracle for me.
I CURRENTLY have the skin quality in my legs, thighs, arms, and behind of a 25 year old girl, and the breast quality of an 18 year old girl. My hair has grown long and beautiful. My hair in back has grown to a bit above boobie level -- in 6 more months, my real natural beautiful hair will likely be at or below my boobie level. Wow this makes me feel happy !
It has taken me a month plus longer than I thought to get together enough money for my boob job to DD cup or DDD cup, but my top-quality plastic surgeon is waiting for me to make the final payments to his office.
I expect this move from my current natural B cup to huge DD cup or DDD cup will be another major life-changing event for me -- and will last for the rest of my life.
Yeah, I will have to go somewhat into debt to pay for it. So what. My happiness is more important than money.
Few people can detect that I am trans in real life now -- unless I tell them - which I seldom need to do.
JENNIFER = beautiful WOMAN = never mind the trans part.
I HAVE DEALT MYSELF NEW CARDS.
Not content with so-called "dressing my age." NEW CARDS.
I dress sexy young. For work I dress as about a 37 or 38 year old woman, and I pull it off well. I have the body for it. I have the right MENTAL ATTITUDE for it.
For clubbing, dancing with friends, shopping centers -- I dress as a 25 year old girl. I dress frequently in pink hot pants you might have seen some of my photos.
A week and a half ago I performed POLE-DANCING (for fun not for money) at a club/bar to an audience of about 15 applauding friends mostly men but some women for the first time in my life. STILL ANOTHER LIFE-LONG DREAM I HAVE NOW BROUGHT INTO REAL LIFE, 3 years after starting my transition to womanhood I FINALLY have the physical body I need to pole-dance.
I did some regular dancing to great music all night till the wee hours, also -- I danced with both men and women.
Let the haters hate. "Haters gonna hate." Go for your positive self-confidence.
I say -- LIVE YOUR DREAMS ---
Jennifer Lopezgomez
August, 2016
This nice (modest) pose is from several months ago (February/March 2016). My beautiful natural hair has grown quite a lot since then even, especially down the back.
I have only normal makeup on in this photo. I am in my 50's and I'd say my skin smoothness, texture, and beauty matches that of a 25-year-old girl -- in my neck, shoulders, arms, and face. This is all the result of a good diet combined with medical-grade HRT hormones. Some friends of mine in their 20's and 30's have commented to me about this. = happiness.
