I have been with my significant other for about a year after he had let me know he was a MTF transgender. He had opened up about it after a conversation about our future and engagement. Once he had told me, both sat down to discuss what he would be comfortable doing; transition, or wait until we had moved out of state since we live in a very heavy religiously tight state. Once he had decided he'd like to transition, I had support him fully, since I was pansexual and my family knew I wasn't afraid of being open with them about it. Once everything was set in motion, me helping purchase clothes under the rouse that they were for me, it finally begin to set in that the person I was with for so long couldn't completely be themselves with me. My one biggest worry is, once he begins the transition, he feels like a new person and would like to experience life like they should have and leaves. I'm happy with whatever I need to do, but the worrying pit in my stomach has not stopped since he told me, and I haven't really eaten or slept. I've even started smoking after almost 6 months of being free of it. Is the stress unwarranted? All I want is to have him be happy, and to feel comfortable in his skin. What happens once HRT starts, and will I lose the person I fell in love with after the struggle? (Yes he is still okay with he/him until he begins HRT)
