My career in the Army was set by my choice of college which was partly my wanting to go there and partly wanting to gain my parents' respect. That was probably a result of them telling me I was sick, twisted, and crazy when I was 13.
My choice of what I studied there was limited to only engineering disciplines so I picked the one that everyone thought was the hardest (EE). I'm not sure why I did that. There probably is some deep seated need to continually prove myself at work there though.
That need continued for a few years after college until I ran out of things to prove myself with. The one constant though has been a trans identity, before, during, and after.
Maybe I was subconsciously trying to chase it away. If so, that was an utter failure. LOL