More to cope with

[debisl]

Oh my just as I thought my life was setteling into a comfort zone. Now that if have had the surgery a whole new game is on.

I am getting use to the new daily regiment we have to go through. I seam be be extreamly aware again of people looking at me. I think it is a self consious thing that people are looking down below. No one except for some very close friends knows what goes on in my life. I know before the surgery I would wear tight fitting clothes. Now I don't know if I feel comfortable doing so. I guess it is the mind games that your brain plays with you.

I am getting around just fine now. It all itches. Can't beleive I said that but I am trying to be honest. I feel like one of those baseball players that is always scratching themselves. I hope this goes away fast. The new plumbing seams to be working just fine. I really like it much better than the old way.

Over all I am very happy thus far. Just a few moments of despair atack me daily.

I had a bonfire at the ranch last night with my friends and all went fine. I seam to be feeling a little bit more normal than the bitch I have been over the last couple of weeks. I had tunned everyone out, and I am just starting to comunicate again.

I am going to go for now

Deb

[BCL]

You have been through a lot deb, both physically and emotionally and it does take time to adjust.

The daily regime of dilating can seem a bind at times, but I just kept telling myself that it was a dream come true.

It  takes time to heal, about 3 months for me before I felt better, so just remember to not overdo things and take it easy.

It is a time of adjustment, a time of exploration a time to forget old feelings and "bits" that you never wanted.

Rebecca

[Sheila]

Deb,
   It will get better as time goes on. I am post op over 4 years now, and I can't even imagine having a penis. It is wierd. How did I ever walk with that thing between my legs. I feel so natural. You will get there and it takes time. Let yourself heal physically and mentally. If that is your picture, then you are one pretty girl and you are young. I envy you.
Sheila

[LostInTime]

Glad to read that everything is going well.

And comfort zone? Life should be interesting and full of wonder.

[debisl]

As the days go on I am starting to feel better. I seam to be getting more feeling down below other than the hurt from dialating.

I think I am walking normal now. Can't swing my hips yet, but working on it. I love to dance, but that is out for now. Don't even want to try yet.

I am mentaly doing good. I think when I can get out and about I will be doing much better.

Thank You all

Deb

[Lori]

I hope things go perfectly for you. Take it easy, and go at your own pace.

[debisl]

Thanks girls!

I appreciate the responses. I can judge my improvements by listening to your experiances. It is just a total lifestyle change for me. I have always been so active. To be out of comission is a hard thing to cope with sometimes. I am hoping in 6 to 8 weeks I will be in much better shape.

Yes Sheila what you see is the real me.

I am starting to realise that all good things come to those who wait. Girls this waiting game is tough, but I will make it. I started to wear my regular clothes again. I have been in sloppy tops and very loose fitting sweat pants. The mind plays tricks on you and I felt crappy so I dressed crappy. I decided it was time to get my ass in gear and quit feeling sorry for myself. So I sit here with a plastic dick in me 3 times a day and it never feels good. What girls don't go through to get is shape.

Well I am getting tired so I will retire to bed

Deb

[Ember Lewis]

I just wanted to wish you a easy recovery, I know how it is to be inactive when you are normally active. I've always worried about recovery after the operation, but when I think about it it's just a blink in an entire lifetime. "Hugs and Kisses"

[debisl]

Well I have made it through week 4. Things are getting better. I am getting use to the regime.

Had some time to do some really down deep thinking. As much work as it is taking me to develope my new parts. I have decided I am not going to give it up to just anyone. The man who I choose to have me first is going to have to be one heck of a nice guy. I am not going to have sex just to see how it works.

It is getting easier for me to say I would not think twice about having SRS. Do it!!!! It is the most wonderful feeling I have ever had. I have to admit that I had my doubts after my operation. I was not feeling too good and wondered what the hell have I done. You are pretty much out of it for a while. This was just my take on things. Everyone is different. I am scared to death of hospitals, so I was sick for about a week because of nerves.

Deb

[Wing Walker]

Well I have made it through week 4. Things are getting better. I am getting use to the regime.

Had some time to do some really down deep thinking. As much work as it is taking me to develope my new parts. I have decided I am not going to give it up to just anyone. The man who I choose to have me first is going to have to be one heck of a nice guy. I am not going to have sex just to see how it works.

It is getting easier for me to say I would not think twice about having SRS. Do it!!!! It is the most wonderful feeling I have ever had. I have to admit that I had my doubts after my operation. I was not feeling too good and wondered what the hell have I done. You are pretty much out of it for a while. This was just my take on things. Everyone is different. I am scared to death of hospitals, so I was sick for about a week because of nerves.

Deb

Hi, Deb,

Congratulations on your successful GRS!  I am pre-op but I am mentally preparing myself for possibly the most draining task I will ever face.  I realize that I cannot know exactly what I will have to endure, nor how long it will last.  But this I do know:  I know what I have prepared for all of these years and *I will not be denied!*

I've read many accounts of the surgery and the recovery of many women.  I've also looked at the photos that the surgeons have placed on the web to understand the complexity of the surgery.  I read your letter.

May I share with you something that I live by?  Don't let anything kill or steal your dream, not anyone or anything.  Post-op is not much fun but it is a part of what you needed and desired.  It's the same with me.

I believe that you are on the right track to healing in your body and emotions, and that first guy had better be a prince among men!

Mend well.

Wing Walker

[melissa90299]

Congrats, Deb, I pushed myself way too hard too early, just take it easy. Even after full recovery, you will be weaker without all that testosterone in your system.

Four months now, I am still weak but sexually active now. I will tell you that you have a lot to look forward to.

Myself, I wasn't about to wait for Prince Charming at my age and I am glad I didn't. Besides, I will be even more of an expert at this (sex) when Mr. Right comes along.

[Renee]

Deb,

I like your taste in horses if you ever get to Texas let me know I keep several drafts at my ranch as well as many other animals from all over the world.

Good luck !!!

Renee

[debisl]

Thanks
I usually have at least 100 horses at the ranch at one time or another. I sold 100 this year at auction. I still have around 100 here now. Horses are my business.

Deb

[buttercup]

Hi Deb,

It's great to hear all is going well with your recovery.  I love your horse and to own 100, wow, that's an achievement!  It is a great business to be in!


buttercup   

[Cursty]

Hi Deb
Glad to hear your surgery went well! You have inspired me to go through with it someday when I can!
Im scared of hospitals too.
But I will get rid of this curse between my legs oneday and change my name to Kirstie! At the moment I guess I just have to live with it.
Its screwing with my identitiy having a penis. I cant stand it.

On another subject-
Wow you have a 100 horses at anytime. Amazing! I love horses. Allthough Im scared to ride them.
Glad to see your doing well and waiting for that nice guy seems like a beautiful thing to do!
Good luck!

[Kat]

Glad things are going good with recovery!  Hopefully I'll be able to at least move around decently by the time school starts 

[funnygrl]

Chin up Deb, glad to hear your doing a lot better. Thanks for sharing so much too!!!

[debisl]

Six weeks down
I am doing much better, although very tired in the afternoons. I don't know if this is normal for now or if I should get a blood work-up. I am seeing my doc monday and will ask her. I am trying to do much of the things I can without hurting myself. I feel no closer to swinging my leg over a saddle. My horse is happy! I just walk her for now so she dosen't feel neglected.

I am going out more and more and feeling comfortable. It is kind of ironic. When you have balls you try to protect them from getting hit. Now that I have a vagina I don't want it to be bumped at all either, as  I think in my mind it is delicate. I guess in time that feeling wil go away. I just keep invisioning a guy pounding the heck out of you during the act of sex, and I am thinking ouch. Oh well there is plenty of time for that later.

Just thought I would give an update

Deb

[melissa90299]

Six weeks down
I am doing much better, although very tired in the afternoons. I don't know if this is normal

It is normal.

I just keep invisioning a guy pounding the heck out of you during the act of sex, and I am thinking ouch.

I all depends on how big he is and how hard he pounds!