Update

[Dena]

I know you want it gone but think of it as a clitoris and vagina in the making. Any surgeon you select will be able to do a far better job with the original equipment than using grafts. Besides that, grafts leave marks on the body where they are collected which might limit your future swim suit selection and bring unwanted questions from future lovers.

[Xirafel]

It's not like surgery would give the real thing anyway. It's a horrible crude imitation. For the low price of tens of thousands of dollars. Just another way for me to be robbed.

If I was averse to every risk in life, I might as-well just go into a cabin in the woods and hide there forever.
Of course, I can't go for solutions which cause a huge financial burden on myself in the future, like the ones needed to get anti-androgens.

For instance, hindering my capabilities to make money. Without money, all that will happen is one having a life of despair. There was one year where my parents were so desperate that they were stealing back the little money they gave me.

I'm probably never going to go swimming anyway, I'm already horrifically disfigured.
Future lovers? I'm interested in literally one person per decade, and they all go against me anyway. Meaningless.
And no sane person would go after someone like me anyway.

Thank you for the post.

[Xirafel]

From the sounds of it, all they really do is invert it and turn it into a tunnel instead. I noticed that when I saw people screaming on these forums about how crude the procedure is, and other people I've spoken to.

It's not like I have to destroy all of it, just the problematic portions, I have an idea of where the chemicals are produced.
I got an idea of where when I read about XY females not having ovaries and needing hormones.

For any additional cells, I don't think they even have to do grafts, maybe they can culture some cells in a lab or something.
Oops, not destroy. I'm getting a little too excited at the prospect of destroying it. I would love to destroy it. Damage.

[Dena]

It's not like surgery would give the real thing anyway. It's a horrible crude imitation. For the low price of tens of thousands of dollars. Just another way for me to be robbed.

Don't knock it until you try it. My surgery is pretty primitive my current standards but it has made many people very happy. Today the surgery has several refinements that make it far better in some respects. Yes, you can't give birth but you can enjoy just about everything a CIS woman experiences.

[Xirafel]

a clitoris

What's a clitoris?

[Dena]

What's a clitoris?

It's the part of the female that allows for sexual simulation without using the vagina. To have a functional one, you need an intact penis as it's used to construct one. This is a place where the surgery has been greatly improved and the ones today are far more realistic than mine.

[Magicka]

What's a clitoris?

It's what gives a woman most of her sexual stimulation. But too bad it is outside instead of inside, if it was inside sex would feel way better for women. Women like to have their clits played with while being penetrated sometimes because the extra stimulation. Imagine how great sex would feel with 3 clits one next to the entrance of tha vag another a little deeper and the last one near the rear at around 5-6 inch depth. Putting icing on the cake if the g spot was stimulated as well. Sex would be literal heaven of pleasure intoxication for women.

Anyway fictional vagina scify fantasies aside

cheer up thing will be ok.

[AnonyMs]

My surgery is pretty primitive my current standards but it has made many people very happy.

You have such a wonderful way with words.

Or is it just me?

[Dena]

You have such a wonderful way with words.

Or is it just me?

That's what I get for posting half awake. As a virgin that didn't come out the way I thought.    I meant others who have had the same surgery that I had. 

[Xirafel]

Okay, I got my plans together in my head. If the problem isn't resolved in a week or two, then I'll permanently cripple that thing's ability to produce androgens. Or any time I'm pushed over the edge, I'm unpredictable like that.
I'll see if... I forgot what I was going to say because someone started screaming. Urm, I'll have to get back to you later on that.

Okay, I remember now. I'll see if I can use it's sensitivity to heat against the two round things.
They have less tolerance for heat than the rest of my body which is good.

$100 is what I'm able to scrounge together in an entire year. It pretty much blew all of my liquid cash.
Even if I got more money, I would need it to buy more pills to continue the process, let alone buying anti-androgens.
And these people talking to themselves, screaming at nothing, and buying lots of wine bottles are freaking me out again x.x

[LizK]

Okay, I got my plans together in my head. If the problem isn't resolved in a week or two, then I'll permanently cripple that thing's ability to produce androgens. Or any time I'm pushed over the edge, I'm unpredictable like that.
I'll see if... I forgot what I was going to say because someone started screaming. Urm, I'll have to get back to you later on that.

Okay, I remember now. I'll see if I can use it's sensitivity to heat against the two round things.
They have less tolerance for heat than the rest of my body which is good.

Are you saying you are going to apply heat to your testicles in the hope that will stop them producing Testosterone?

Liz

[SidneyAldaine]

Yes, she is saying just that... 

[Mariah]

Harming yourself is never the anwser. If you want surgery down there in the future they need that tissue in as good of health as can be in order to give you SRS that isn't a complete graph from somewhere else. My advice would be to work through any hoops in front of you. I'm not familiar with your situation, but I can guarantee nothing is ever that bad as to need such action to fix an issue by harming ones self. Do you have a therapist or someone you could talk to and help you through this? Hugs
Mariah

Okay, I got my plans together in my head. If the problem isn't resolved in a week or two, then I'll permanently cripple that thing's ability to produce androgens. Or any time I'm pushed over the edge, I'm unpredictable like that.
I'll see if... I forgot what I was going to say because someone started screaming. Urm, I'll have to get back to you later on that.

Okay, I remember now. I'll see if I can use it's sensitivity to heat against the two round things.
They have less tolerance for heat than the rest of my body which is good.

$100 is what I'm able to scrounge together in an entire year. It pretty much blew all of my liquid cash.
Even if I got more money, I would need it to buy more pills to continue the process, let alone buying anti-androgens.
And these people talking to themselves, screaming at nothing, and buying lots of wine bottles are freaking me out again x.x

[Xirafel]

Another mental breakdown... I want to hide somewhere no one can find me... Humans are all evil...

[Xirafel]

A therapist? No, a friend. I'm probably too emotional for them, mhm.
My psychologist is no good at all. Traitor. Actually, you can't betray someone, if you're never on their side, but it was a nice thought that she might care.

[Xirafel]

I soaked it in hot water a couple of times, but nothing happened other than it turning red o.o
The water from the hot water tap might not be hot enough x.x

[Xirafel]

Maybe, I should try it a few times or wait to see if it's gotten better o.o
Or maybe, find some boiling water

I like sweet things, is that bad for the pills?

[Mariah]

I would not get the pills wet. They will just lose what they have and be of no good to you. Hugs
Mariah

Maybe, I should try it a few times or wait to see if it's gotten better o.o
Or maybe, find some boiling water

I like sweet things, is that bad for the pills?

[Xirafel]

I didn't soak my pills in there. I soaked the "venom sacs" of the little "parasite".
Think about it. The long bit is it's abdomen, the hole is it's butt, the round things are it's venom sacs, and the thing going in is it's mouth. It's like one of those face huggers from Alien.

When I think of that psychologist, I imagine sending her a message like this in six months, urm I totally wouldn't do it, but I can imagine doing it:
"Have you heard of this drug called estrogen? I seem to be addicted to it. Is there any help you might provide with this? It boosts my mood and gives me some serious withdrawal symptoms when it's taken away."

[Magicka]

I didn't soak my pills in there. I soaked the "venom sacs" of the little "parasite".
Think about it. The long bit is it's abdomen, the hole is it's butt, the round things are it's venom sacs, and the thing going in is it's mouth. It's like one of those face huggers from Alien.

When I think of that psychologist, I imagine sending her a message like this in six months, urm I totally wouldn't do it, but I can imagine doing it:
"Have you heard of this drug called estrogen? I seem to be addicted to it. Is there any help you might provide with this? It boosts my mood and gives me some serious withdrawal symptoms when it's taken away."

That was a funny way to describe your 'things'! Ew! facehugger! The Alien franchise is soo gross!