Your interiority is not a fraud. That's where the real you resides.
And yeah, what you're going through is a part of transition. We know what our bodies are supposed to look like, and until our bodies are there I think we're still in transition. Which takes time and patience and perseverance and money. (Work out, build muscle -- this really helps, not only in terms of how you look, but it can give you more of the sense that you're in control of your body. And if you're concerned about other aspects of your shape, you might want to consider autologous fat transfer -- a sort of reverse Brazilian Butt Lift, having fat transferred from your hips and butt to your waist, to create a more straight figure.)
Worse, even when all is said and done, it still takes time for the brain to readjust. See, our brains have images of ourselves and other people stored away in memory, and to facilitate the processing of reality those memories are invoked over and over again based on sensory input. When I had facial surgery, for example, it took a while for the face I saw in the mirror to actually resemble my real new face. And not just for me, but for people who knew me very well, too, while people I just met had no problem seeing what was actually there -- there weren't any memories of a previous image getting in the way.
This is also why it's so hard for people who've known us prior to transition to gender us correctly and consistently. My extremely supportive parents, for example, took a good couple years to get it down. "Friends," on the other hand, didn't have the motivation to do so, and none of them made it to my post-transition years. So it goes.
It's like being haunted by a ghost. But ghosts are just figments of the imagination. They go away when they're not constantly invoked.
Anyways, give yourself more time. You haven't had your surgeries yet, which will make a huge difference.
