Yes, the dysphoria associated with crossdressing became overwhelming for me. Worse than any intrinsic dysphoria I had to begin with. The cycles of dressing for relief followed by intense rebound of dysphoria went in a crescendo until unbearable. Like others, I obtained no erotic stimulation from it. It was not a sexual thing in any way for me, jut a realization and expression of femininity. Initially, it seemed to have a dysphoria relieving effect but soon any sort lasting relief was overshadowed by a tsunami of reactive dysphoria when returning to my male role. That is when I started therapy.
With a fair amount of psychotherapy and a lot of meditation and introspection, I got to a place were I'm not feeling pressed, of in fact, wanting to crossdress, not dysphoric over my male presentation on a day to day basis. I often will see a very attractive woman, an article of clothing or some other evidence of the feminine and have a passing thought where I might wish I were living in a feminine role but not resulting in a wave of dysphoria.
Many have warned me that this may not be a stable solution, dysphoria being a nasty demon that more often than not refuses to be caged and controlled. I am aware of this, not in denial over my TG nature, but have at least found a practical path forward that seems to be working well. I am ready to confront the demon as needed.
In a different life, transition might have made a lot of sense for me. Where I am now, it does not and would leave my life in ruin.
