Quote from: p on August 02, 2017, 11:37:12 AM
Greetings from the Garden State, Laurie! Sorry that I have missed out on several weeks of posts. I was visiting my family for the first time since transitioning--it went well--and then I went to the beach for a little bit.
I am sorry to hear that things with your daughter are rocky right now. But on the flip side, I am in awe of you for taking the huge steps of going full-time and coming out on Facebook! Wow!!
I am avoiding coming out on Facebook because I always feel that I should tell this-or-that person on the phone first, and then I never even make the phone calls... A friend's wedding is coming up in a few weeks, though, so I need to get my butt in gear and make some calls.
And you know, I hate to bring up the dreaded M-word (no, not Moni), but I've heard a MAKEOVER is just the thing for ladies feeling a little "stuck" in their transition
Thanks so much again for visiting me during your trip. It sounds like the trip was a really wonderful experience. I really enjoyed reading all of your posts (and the limerick competition that followed).
Love, your #1 fan,
Patti
Well hello stranger, ((HUG))
I am glad to hear from you Patti and very glad to hear your trip home went well. I so wished we had more time to visit but i am thankful for the time we had. You young lady are a joy to visit.
True to your title, of #1 fan I see you have taken the time to catch up on what I've done in the weeks you have been gone and know all there is to know about me. (shaking my head in wonder) You flatter me girl. Thank you.
My situation with my daughter is what it is. She would probably say my actions over this last bit of nonsense was an overreaction and needless escalation over a minor issue. And heck she could be right, but it is just another thing to blame me for and I am done with it. It doesn't even have anything to do with my being trans, not really it goes back further than that. Since she is as stubborn as I am, this rift is not likely to be resolved. As a little girl she used to bring this to me fix instead of her mother saying "Daddy fix it". Well, Daddy has tried too long and too hard to fix this blame she harbors toward me and has given up. Daddy can't fix it. I've chosen to remove them from my friends list for a couple reason. One is that I hope to lessen the hurt and temptation to comment (possibly in hurt or bitterness) that following them will bring. and second To minimize the impact of me and my new life may have upon them. To me it is obvious the want no part of it and thereby me.
Coming out on FB was just another step in my coming out and living my life openly. I'm not hiding any longer. I did wait until I had made my phone calls or face to face confessions to those I felt I must. Which is just what you are wanting to do. But you my girl, needs must stop procrastinating. Just get off that cute butt and pick up the phone and call them. The sooner you do it , the sooner you are done and then you can feel the freedom of living without the burden of those secrets. They are a burden on your soul and it feels so good when you let them go.
Going full time was just a natural extension that grew out of that wonderful road trip of discovery for myself. How could I not do it? Everyone of you who took that trip with me in your hearts are responsible for where I am now in my journey. Yes, I feel a little stuck, but as I've been shown, I am not really, the pace of what I'm doing has just slowed back to a normal one. I am still moving, but the excitement of the road trip has diminished, if not gone altogether. Sad isn't it? It was so much fun.
LOL Yes, the makeover, sigh, The makeover challenge was but a tool to help me move along in my journey and help me become more comfortable with it. Do you not think my road trip has done that, and done it in spades? I do. The makeover my dear friend is going to happen. I have not forgotten about it, nor am I fighting it any longer. When I do go have it done it will be to enjoy the experience and to learn a little bit of technique. When it will happen I do not know, I know only that it will. I have promised myself this and now all of you.
So you went to the beach? I'm guessing it was not just a day trip. I hope it was a quite beach and the time was spent with your husband. A romantic getaway so to speak. I can picture you in a bikini lying on the beach working on your tan while the waves lick at the sandy shore. It's a pretty picture in my mind.
And thank you for the silly limerick. Yes, it made me laugh fondly at it. Thank you for the smile.
Glad you are home safe and that your homecoming went well for you.
Hugs for you, Patti
Laurie