Today is a bad day. In fact it is more than a bad day, it stinks. It stinks worse than tripping and falling into a cesspool then getting sprayed by a skunk. If you cannot tell I upset and venting and I don't give a damn what anyone thinks about any damn thing at the moment. and I don't give a damn what anyone thinks about it either. I don't want you sympathy or your condemnation. It wouldn't make one damn bit of difference. I love you all and I hate you all. I'm hated by 2 of the three sisters I have left in this screwed up world. My daughter and her husband hate me and have denounced me hatefully on facebook for all my friends and my family and her friends can see. They of course have had an out pouring of support for the horrible childhood she has suffered at my hands then and since. The poor dear... I'm a racist, a cop hater, and a persecutor of Christians, Not to mention a deviate and pervert for transitioning, I'm An all round wonderfully %^&* dad and waste of flesh. My sister in Colorado is in full support of her "now that she knows the truth" heck maybe she's right. just wtf do i think I am doing?
I want to be alone, I said it before. I don't really like people. the more you have the worse they are. Individually they can hurt you. in groups they can crush you. i have people,hate crowds, hate towns and cities. I wish I was alone by myself somewhere physically far from anyone. sometimes I find myself wishing my sister wasn't dependent on my support so I could move. so i can find a shack or cottage in the woods. All i would need is some food, water, and an internet connection. yeah a freakin internet connection because I'm addicted to it. I can talk to people , I could choose who I want to talk to and get rid of the with ease if I want. I can rave and have opinions and piss jerks off and block them from my life with a button. I could stop my meds and live w/o and die in peace if my health fails and I would never again be hurt.
