Quote from: Laurie on October 02, 2017, 04:49:05 PM
In it she says "I am sorry that we aren't able to handle your transition, I have so many memories of you and am afraid to acknowledge you as a woman. I hope that makes sense. Bottom line is I love you and don't want to lose touch." So I guess that means I've lost another couple I care about.. but in a nice way. It still means the same thing.
Good morning, Laurie,
I don't sleep well either. Except for those who outright disowned me, that's pretty much the same response I received from everyone except one brother and his family who are very supportive. When you feel up to it, do you live in an area where you can connect with a trans support group and make new friends? If not, is there any way you can relocate to a progressive city where you can make new friends? I know I'm very lucky to live in a larger, more progressive city, with a large LGBT community, although the state will throw me in jail for using the Lady's room, which I do any way.
Losing pretty much everyone in my life, I'm trying to make new friends. I found an inclusive non-religious church that advocates for social justice and LGBT rights. I started visiting a couple of weeks ago, met with a board member to learn more about them, and hope to find some love and friends there eventually. I'm trying to do some activities with my local Indian tribe like taking a language class - I'm a 'two-spirit' (trans) person.
If you have to change your environment to stay alive, do it. I know this is much easier said than done. Having virtual friends who love you here on Susan's Place is awesome, but we all need people around us in our lives who like us and some semblance of a social life to be healthy. I desperately need new friends and some sort of social life. Please see the shrink and give meds a chance to get you on your feet. I hate getting advice like this from other people, so consider this as just sharing how I'm trying to cope with the loss. If I'm intruding and giving unwelcome advice, please say so. It will not hurt my feelings. The bottom line for me is that I want to live. My favorite song is
"Alive in the World" by Jackson Browne. One of the lyrics is "I want to live in the world, not inside my head. I want to live in the world, not behind some wall."
Hugs and kisses
Tommie