So tomorrow I'm going in for an ultrasound of my uterus. This is already unsettling, but they want to do one of those internal ones... you know where I'm headed with this. 🙂 I've known for a couple of weeks this is coming, and I've dealt with it by denial. But that's tomorrow and I'm really, really not looking forward to this. I am keen though to get answers since I had some massive abnormal bleeding earlier this month that landed me in emergency (unknown cause), and no clue so far about what's up. Blood work was fine. Otherwise, random cycle bleeding and bloating.
None of this is normal for me, so I was talking with my doctor options about how to deal with this stuff, if it's 'hormonal' as opposed to other stuff. The main suggestion was to insert an... IUD, which may trigger the dysphoria even worse than the internal ultrasound. I'm thinking that if it's hormone-related, I may start T sooner (by summer) rather than later (fall). It's not a huge difference, but I'm more inclined to do that.
Anyway, I'm creeped out and needed to vent. Already not impressed with those parts, never mind all the problems they're causing this month.