The In Denial Stage

[MaxForever]

I am assuming this is normal for most people going through the first steps.
I am back and forth on "Do I want to be male?" I know that I am unhappy in the body I have.
I feel I must come out and present as who I am but I have been afraid to admit it sometimes.
I have lived as a woman for 32 years it is all I know but I know I want to be happy.
Do I see myself transitioning? Yes, but I am a bit scared I don't know why as I said in my other post.
I know I have imagined being male a few times in my life before I found out thinking "What if this?"
I feel relationships would be easier if I was male and not female (Sorry for TMI)
Anyway sorry for ranting I know a lot of people here are feeling the same way.

[Wild Flower]

I wouldn't come out unless I was 90% sure I am going transition as soon as I say it. Your close to living half your good years in life (counting all the good years as below 80), do you want the rest of the other years to be the same?

What will happen the sun becomes purple, and the solar system is eaten by a big dark hole like pacman, each planet look like a bowling ball into the hole.

I would do real life experience for a while, and tell people who are strangers you are a man... first break the ice, and then go based on that.

We weren't born with a how-to-live-life manual when we were born, and there's no rule that you can't be a man. If people don't like it, forget about until they come to terms with it.

[MaxForever]

Thanks for the response I already came out to my family and friends and they accept me as I am.
I am pretty sure this is what I want I am just trying to accept it and I am sure I will eventually.
It is a hard stage to go through. I am a person who is afraid to be happy. I am going to tell my doctor today what I am going through hopefully she will accept it. I found a therapist I am going to book an appointment with soon.