Agree with what has been said here. I am real sorry things are not working out as planned. I was reading a few and only a few posts you have made and I thought somewhere it said you have been living full times for like 9 years now? If dysphoira is really bothering you this badly still PM me sometime, depending on what it is I may have a couple of pointers to help you. No on deserves to suffer, and running off and away from a support site will likely do more harm and probably not any good. Remember, we got your back <3