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Started by steph2.0, September 17, 2017, 11:42:47 PM

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Laurie

Denise,

  I would ask you to give Stephanie a hug from me Except that she is just going to have to wait for the one I am going to give her myself.
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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steph2.0

Quote from: Laurie on December 09, 2017, 10:34:10 PM
Denise,

  I would ask you to give Stephanie a hug from me Except that she is just going to have to wait for the one I am going to give her myself.

I am going to hold you to that promise. And I've got a big hug wrapped up and ready for delivery for you, too. I'll be waiting.

Steph


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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KathyLauren

Quote from: Steph2.0 on December 09, 2017, 04:01:33 PMIt does seem that the more intimate the interactions, the harder it is for me. I do much better with total strangers than I do with friends and acquaintances.
Well, duh, yeah.  Of course it's harder.  Cut yourself some slack.  You showed up, you talked to some people.  Ya done good, girl!  Trust me, it will get easier with time.

Kudos to your neighbours for picking up on your vibe and helping you to de-stress.  You've got to love friends like that.

Hugs.
2015-07-04 Awakening; 2015-11-15 Out to self; 2016-06-22 Out to wife; 2016-10-27 First time presenting in public; 2017-01-20 Started HRT!!; 2017-04-20 Out publicly; 2017-07-10 Legal name change; 2019-02-15 Approval for GRS; 2019-08-02 Official gender change; 2020-03-11 GRS; 2020-09-17 New birth certificate
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steph2.0

Quote from: KathyLauren on December 10, 2017, 08:09:11 AMKudos to your neighbours for picking up on your vibe and helping you to de-stress.  You've got to love friends like that.

I do, and I let them know that in no uncertain terms as we left last night. We had a very open conversation not just about what Sue and I are going through, but about some traumatic things they're dealing with as well. It was all very intimate and warm, and they had actually gone out and bought pina colada ingredients just for us, despite him much preferring his Bud Light. It was the kind of thing that I had never anticipated when I came out to them. B served in the Navy and played football in college, and is "all man" (whatever that means). K, while not completely getting it, is just a sweetheart and completely supportive.

I was disappointed though, that there were no umbrellas in the drinks.

Steph


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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steph2.0

Today Sue, my friend Cassandra, and I met up with list member Denise, who is in the Sunshine state visiting her parents. We got together at a Cheddar's next to the airport in Orlando.

Denise is pretty dang cool, and if you've seen pictures of her here, they don't do her justice at all. She had excellent advice for me regarding my name change paperwork, voice work, and a ton of other transitioney stuff.

We had a great lunch and lots of stories, laughs, common experiences, and lies to tell. After the waiter started giving us the stink eye for using his table too long, we headed down the street to what Cassie dubbed "DUI Friday's" for some liquid refreshment. Unfortunately, just as we sat down, Denise got the expected call to pick up her friend from the airport, and had to leave.

Sue snapped our picture as we were leaving Cheddar's. It was a cold, extremely clear and bright day here, and we were all blinded by the light (cut loose like a deuce) so I, at least, look terrible. But there were smiles all around.

What a neat thing to sit down and share some time face to face with another sister from Susan's. I hope to meet a lot more of you like that in the future.

Especially you, Laurie. You're now obligated to deliver Qty 1 Hug, Type Warm, Size Extra Large, FOB Steph & Sue's Casa.

Stephanie



Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Laurie

Me and my big mouth. Let see I think I promised Michelle a visit and now you. Oh heck, anyone I promised a visit raise their hand.
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Kendra

Quote from: Steph2.0 on December 10, 2017, 08:20:24 AM
> despite him much preferring his Bud Light
>
> I was disappointed though, that there were no umbrellas in the drinks

Bud Light doesn't need an umbrella - it's already water.
Assigned male at birth 1963.  Decided I wanted to be a girl in 1971.  Laser 2014-16, electrolysis 2015-17, HRT 7/2017, GCS 1/2018, VFS 3/2018, FFS 5/2018, Labiaplasty & BA 7/2018. 
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steph2.0

Quote from: Kendra on December 10, 2017, 06:35:27 PM
Bud Light doesn't need an umbrella - it's already water.

In a rollover accident yesterday, a tanker truck carrying 58,000 gallons of Bud Light spilled it's entire contents across six lanes of I-75. Happily, no beer was wasted.


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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steph2.0



Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Megan.

That looks almost official! X

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steph2.0

Quote from: Megan. on December 11, 2017, 01:50:27 PM
That looks almost official! X

Only something official could induce this much ocular leakage. Waterproof eyeliner... not


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Laurie

April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Faith

Way to go Stephanie! I'd shout it out but I don't feel like getting stared at.
I left the door open, only a few came through. such is my life.

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KathyLauren

Woo-hoo!  Congratulations, you are officially ... YOU!
2015-07-04 Awakening; 2015-11-15 Out to self; 2016-06-22 Out to wife; 2016-10-27 First time presenting in public; 2017-01-20 Started HRT!!; 2017-04-20 Out publicly; 2017-07-10 Legal name change; 2019-02-15 Approval for GRS; 2019-08-02 Official gender change; 2020-03-11 GRS; 2020-09-17 New birth certificate
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Jayne01

Woooooohoooooooo!!!
That is so exciting Steph. What a wonderful moment for you. That is awesome!!!

Jayne
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Anne Blake

You go girl! Doesn't it feel both so right and so fine?
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Kendra

Assigned male at birth 1963.  Decided I wanted to be a girl in 1971.  Laser 2014-16, electrolysis 2015-17, HRT 7/2017, GCS 1/2018, VFS 3/2018, FFS 5/2018, Labiaplasty & BA 7/2018. 
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steph2.0

Awww geeeez you guyzzz. That's it, I give up on the makeup today. Every time someone gives me a cheer I end up looking like Rocky Raccoon again.

I wrote this on Facebook under the screen shot of my name change:

QuoteHello World. This is me. Thank you for welcoming me.

Yes, Tia Anne, I haven't felt this way before. It's just a lousy piece of paper, but it's made me understand viscerally that old whatsisname doesn't exist any longer. I guess I had gone from acting like Steve for so many years, to acting like Steph. And now suddenly I feel like it's not an act any more.

I had written a while ago about the first time I went dressed to my therapist. She had encouraged me to go to lunch after our appointment. I was sitting in my car trying to gather my courage, and I watched a young woman cross the road. Just striding along, swinging her arms, and living in the moment. Not a thought for who she was. Just being. I internalized that and emulated it to get through my first lunch out by myself.

And now I've discovered that the acting, the emulating, is gone. That piece of paper somehow released me from all that pretending.

Now I can just be.

Stephanie Rhapsody Bensinger


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Jayne01

Steph, you are giving me so much joy by sharing your happiness. Thank you for letting us be a part of your journey. It is such a privilege to see you go from one happy milestone to another.

Congratulations on becoming the real you.

Jayne
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steph2.0

Quote from: Jayne01 on December 11, 2017, 10:38:15 PM
Steph, you are giving me so much joy by sharing your happiness. Thank you for letting us be a part of your journey. It is such a privilege to see you go from one happy milestone to another.

Congratulations on becoming the real you.

Jayne

Jayne, the only thing that's giving me more joy than the actual event, is all of you sharing it with me. Knowing that you all think I'm worthy of your love touches me more deeply than I know how to describe.

Thank you.


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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