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Started by steph2.0, September 17, 2017, 11:42:47 PM

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steph2.0

Yesterday was the Dragon Lady's birthday, and I really wanted to get her something different this year rather than the canonical dragon necklace and t-shirt. She's always loved musicals, and once in a while the line, "Sit downnnn, John!" and, "Nobody listens to you. You're obnoxious and disliked, you know," (only occasionally applied to me) would pop up in the household. So I knew I had the perfect gift when I found that a local community theater was doing the play 1776 on her birthday. So off we went yesterday to the Moonlight Player's Theater to see how our founding fathers signed the Declaration of Independence (with apologies to my dear friends in the British Empire). Cassie went along, and she and I got a little dressed up while Sue chose a casual red, white, and blue theme. The tickets were reserved in Stephanie Bensinger's name, of course.



I've always rolled my eyes at musicals. One time at dinner with friends I noted that in real life nobody ever breaks into song in the middle of a conversation. Of course, the rest of the meal was punctuated with musical outbursts of things like, "Pleeeeease pass the saaaaalt!" (with appropriate flamboyant theatricality) and other such silliness. But I had a great time. I guess it's different live. The only problem I had was I think they were trying to get a little too realistic when it came to showing how hot it was in June and July 1776 in Philadelphia. It was oppressively hot in the theater, and I was afraid my hair was going to wilt. And when the thunderstorm started outside you could hardly hear the actors because of the loud rain on the roof. But hey, it's community theater in an old warehouse, and it was incredibly well done. And most importantly, Sue loved it.

Hmmm. I see Hamilton! is coming to Orlando in January...

During intermission we stood in line (with mostly other women, of course) for one of the two gender-neutral restrooms. Cassie and I chatted until one opened up for her, and there I stood, alone in line. So I decided to once again channel my big sister Tia, and I struck up a conversation with the lady behind me in line. It was a completely inconsequential conversation, but also so incredibly natural and drama-free. You'd think I'd be getting used to it by now, but in the bad old days I wouldn't even have raised my head to say a quiet hi to someone, much less strike up girl talk with a total stranger, so these types of interactions are a huge thing for me, especially considering the transition-induced social anxiety I've had to get through. Thank you, Tia, for showing me the way.

After we walked the actors line on the way out, thanking and congratulating them (it was the last show) we went out to a birthday dinner at a restaurant on a lake close by. The food was only okay, but I loved being out (and looking good, if I must say so myself) with my two favorite people. Our waitress "ladied" us for the entire meal.

It was a wonderful day.



Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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steph2.0

This pic is from Friday when Cassie and I were in a Starbucks in Jupiter, FL (we couldn't afford the airfare to the real Jupiter).

I have always been extremely self-conscious about my shoulders, but took a chance and tried a sleeveless blouse. I couldn't believe that it seemed to be okay! I was told multiple times that I looked great, and later that my smile lit up the room. I don't see it - I still see too much of "him" in there - but it sure feels good to hear such things.



Stephanie

PS: A personal observation from a crotchety old woman - feel free to ignore: I'm posting the picture here instead of the "You Look Fabulous" thread. I've found that you have to be 29 or younger or be fantastically beautiful to get more than one encouraging comment there. I'll admit that I've tried posting there out of vanity and compliment hunting, with near complete invisibility. Congrats to the beauties who post there, but I've quit following it.


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Kendra

Quote from: Steph2.0 on June 25, 2018, 09:44:25 AM
> I still see too much of "him" in there - but it sure feels good to hear such things


What!?  Him?  Where?  I just don't see that in you now.  Nope.  Or maybe one is lurking in that odd painting behind you.

Quote from: Steph2.0 on June 25, 2018, 09:44:25 AM
> have to be 29 or younger

I tune that out with a simple conversion, Imperial to Metric.  Numbers are just data thingies.  Besides, base-10 is overrated. 
Assigned male at birth 1963.  Decided I wanted to be a girl in 1971.  Laser 2014-16, electrolysis 2015-17, HRT 7/2017, GCS 1/2018, VFS 3/2018, FFS 5/2018, Labiaplasty & BA 7/2018. 
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Jayne01

Quote from: Steph2.0 on June 25, 2018, 09:44:25 AM
This pic is from Friday when Cassie and I were in a Starbucks in Jupiter, FL (we couldn't afford the airfare to the real Jupiter).

I have always been extremely self-conscious about my shoulders, but took a chance and tried a sleeveless blouse. I couldn't believe that it seemed to be okay! I was told multiple times that I looked great, and later that my smile lit up the room. I don't see it - I still see too much of "him" in there - but it sure feels good to hear such things.



Stephanie

PS: A personal observation from a crotchety old woman - feel free to ignore: I'm posting the picture here instead of the "You Look Fabulous" thread. I've found that you have to be 29 or younger or be fantastically beautiful to get more than one encouraging comment there. I'll admit that I've tried posting there out of vanity and compliment hunting, with near complete invisibility. Congrats to the beauties who post there, but I've quit following it.
Stephanie, WOW!!! You do look fabulous. You don't need to go searching for compliments in other threads. The compliments will come to you. More important than what any of us think is how you see yourself, and you are slowly seeing more and more of the beautiful woman we all see. Beauty runs far deeper than any minor surface imperfections that living life gives us.

I'm glad Sue had a great birthday. Happy belated birthday, Sue. [emoji322][emoji322][emoji322][emoji322]

I know what you mean about musicals. I used to turn my nose up at those until many years ago, my wife and I went to see a broadway show on our first visit to New York. We loved it and we have since seen several musicals, enjoying every one of them. And yes, for some time after the show, our own lives become a musical, singing "caaaaan yoouuu pass the saaaaalt please" and other such silliness. [emoji16] The musical silliness also happens when watching a movie that is a musical. The last one we watched was "The Greatest Showman".

Keep up the good work, your progress so far is admirable.

Hugs,
Jayne
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Northern Star Girl

@Steph2.0
My dear Stephanie:   As we all know, we are our own worst critics to an extreme.   I certainly do not see any of your old male self in your Jupiter picture.... perhaps it is the gravity there that is affecting your thoughts and coming to the wrong conclusions about what you see in your picture. 
I see a very beautiful lady dressed very nicely with feminine looking shoulders, beautiful blonde hair  (hmmm, I need to get my hair touched up again) and a great big intoxicating smile.

If you feel like you do about the  "You Look Fabulous"  thread then don't go there.  I also feel a little hesitant to post my pictures there along side of all of those beautiful ladies and their fabulous looks and great outfits.... they do indeed look wonderful and beautiful there....

...and as  @Jayne01  so aptly stated "You do look fabulous. You don't need to go searching for compliments in other threads. The compliments will come to you."    

I do not agree with what you stated about your own picture "still see too much of "him" in there"'
    On the other hand I very much agree with what  @Kendra  stated: "What!?  Him?  Where?  I just don't see that in you now.  Nope.  Or maybe one is lurking in that odd painting behind you."

Your followers and readers will give you all the honest opinions you need, usually from the older more seasoned crowd....
hmmm, am I in the older more seasoned crowd or the younger crowd... I am a confused 38 year old, it must be from the HRT hormones or perhaps from the hair color chemicals.

Love ya Stephanie... please continue keeping your thread updated and treat us to your beautiful pictures or even more of your "hot and sweaty" pictures of yourself as you feel that you want to post them.

Hugs and well wishes .... and watch out for that trip home from Jupiter, it can take years off of your life unless you go to Warp speed.... better check with Scotty down in the engine room.
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Jayne01

Quote from: Alaskan Danielle on June 25, 2018, 05:36:28 PM
Your followers and readers will give you all the honest opinions you need, usually from the older more seasoned crowd....
hmmm, am I in the older more seasoned crowd or the younger crowd... I am a confused 38 year old, it must be from the HRT hormones or perhaps from the hair color chemicals.
My dear Danielle, we are only as old as we feel, or is it as old as we act? If it's the former, I feel like I am in my mid to late 20's, if it's the latter, then I am afraid I am an older, more seasoned 5 year old! [emoji23]

Jayne
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steph2.0

Kendra, Jayne, Danielle, and Cassie (who gave her assessment in person): Thank you so much for your kind words. It's going to take more time for me to see it, and honestly, I think it may take a change along the lines of what Kendra has accomplished before I can really believe that I look female. But I have to admit that other than a few bizarre incidents, I have been gendered correctly for a while now.

Thank you for pledging to tell me the truth. Honesty is very important. It's of course wonderful to hear compliments, but it's also important to know when things aren't working so they can be corrected.

Cassie made me really think when she asked me if she said something nice, would I even believe her? She pledged, as you all have, to never tell me anything that she didn't truly believe.

So from this point on, I choose to not doubt what you all tell me. It's not an easy thing for me to extend my trust like that. A lifetime of defensive hiding is a hard thing to unlearn. But I've come to regard you all as dear friends, and if you can't believe what your special friends tell you, who can you believe?

There continues to be a question in my mind of whether strangers are unquestionably seeing a woman, or aren't sure and are giving me the benefit of the doubt based on clothing cues, etc. I am often preached to that it shouldn't matter, but I make no apologies that, for me, it does matter. It matters a lot. I've been putting off writing about what I've been doing about it, since it's a bit painful, but another post coming up will explain it.

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Meanwhile, I was at another "therapy session" when some of your messages arrived this evening. It's the kind of session that can do more for me than any therapist can. It really happened -  here are the pics, Kathy.


Near Brooksville, FL


Rainstorm and rainbow near Zephyrhills, FL.

Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Jayne01

I love your kind of therapy sessions, Stephanie. You continue to feed my flying bug. One of these days I am going to have to do something about getting back in the air.

Hugs,
Jayne
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steph2.0

Over in @SassyCassie's thread she's writing about a trip we took to southeast Florida. As part of the trip we spent time with her relatives, and she took me to my first time on the beach, which I'd written about earlier.
The initial catalyst for the entire trip, though, was an appointment I'd made for a consultation with an FFS clinic in Jupiter, FL.

After breakfast we blasted south in Cassie's Marauder. As usual, we got a late start, so I remain the late Stephanie Bensinger. We arrived about 1/2 hour late, but happily I had the last appointment of the day, so they had plenty of time to see me.

Since my memory is what I forget with, I asked Cassie to sit in to make a mental recording and pose questions I might forget to ask. We started out with a short meeting with the administrative assistant, and after covering the preliminaries, moved to an examination room where we met with the doctor.

The most important thing I am pursuing is hair grafts. As you may have seen from my pictures, I still have a reasonable amount of hair, but the front hairline has receded in the corners, and the top and crown are thin. I'm constantly self-conscious about it, and you'll usually see me with a hat or one of my IFV's* to hide the hairline. Secondarily, I wanted to know about rhinoplasty, lip lift, and a face and chin lift. I had a feeling from my own research and from what others have told me, that I shouldn't need any bone work such as brow bossing or jaw recontouring. But I went in with the idea that what I'm interested in was a suggestion, and I was open to the doctor's recommendations.

As it turned out, I was pretty close to what the doctor recommended. He agreed that my brow and jaw were fine, and he even thought the rhinoplasty was optional (I don't agree about the optional part). He did suggest a hairline advancement and slight lip augmentation which he'd do as part of the lip lift. The doc was very personable and sounded professional and competent. After a few more questions, even straying into some things that Cassie was interested in, we moved back to the conference room to meet with the admin assistant again to discuss the costs.

This is where things kind of fell apart. I figured since no really invasive work would be needed, I'd be looking at somewhere around $12,000 for the hair grafts, and $15 to $18k for the rest, for about $30k for it all.

Their bottom line: just over $42,000. This is with minimal prep work and no aftercare. Considering that we were in Jupiter, it's no wonder that all the oxygen left the room. It took my breath away. All I could do at that point was thank them for their time, let them know that it was my intention to get a second opinion, which they agreed was a good idea,  and shuffle back to the Marauder.

It was time to do some more research. I have since learned that a friend had gone to FacialTeam in Spain, had much more intensive work done than I'm looking at, spent two weeks at a beautiful seaside recovery facility, toured Europe, and flown there and back - for about the same price I was quoted. Needless to say, I'm now in the the process of setting up a consultation with FacialTeam.

I'll write more about our trip in separate posts, but that's where I stand on FFS right now.

Stephanie

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Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Northern Star Girl

@Steph2.0
Dear Stephanie:   So sorry to hear about your "breath taking" realization about the shocking astronomical costs of your contemplated FFS    Sometimes there can be some compromises that can be made ...  there might be some less expensive and yet satisfactory way to achieve what you want to have done.   
Well, what can I say? ... Jupiter is an expensive and oxygen starved place to be.

So, Stephanie, take some time to catch your breath and please keep us posted...
Wishing you well as always... and
Many HUGS,
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Dani

It was very interesting to hear that your went to see 1776. Just a few days ago I was watching the same musical in Turner Classic Movies on TV. It was entertaining and humorous to watch. The show was full of fantastic one liners, some of the songs are truly hilarious and the entire show was historically accurate as well.

A musical well worth seeing again and again.
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steph2.0

#1751
Remember when I said I wanted to expand my horizons and try new things? Last night we tried something that we've had reservations for for a while. Sue and Cassie and I had made plans to go with my awesome neighbors on a Tampa Bay dinner cruise aboard a large yacht. Unfortunately my neighbors had to back out unexpectedly, so I scrambled to find a couple who would take their tickets. All the couples I knew were tied up, but after some asking around, half of one of the couples was available. My friend I'd built the last plane for could come, though his wife was out of town. It turned out he would be honored to escort we three ladies.

We met at the docks in Clearwater and boarded the Starlite Majesty.



We had window seats, and enjoyed the good food, the scenery slowly drifting by, and each other's company.




I had a bit of an eye-opening moment after we sat down. The wall I was facing at the far end of the deck was mirrored, and when I looked up there was a pretty lady sitting off in the distance looking back at me. It took a second to realize who she was, and when it hit me I had to smile. I wondered, is this who other people see when they look at me, not all the flaws that are so evident to myself? It was a surprising realization that maybe I'm not doing as badly as I always think I am.



Edit: I was just reminded of something I forgot to write about. There were two special dinner packages available, one for birthdays and one for anniversaries. Since the anniversary package included a voucher for wine and three roses (for three ladies), that's the one I ordered. We all had something to celebrate: Sue's birthday was last week, Cassie and I were celebrating recent and upcoming ReBirthdays, and our chaperone concocted something about how long he'd been retired. We were asked our names and what we were celebrating, and Sue's was easy. The rest of us just told the waiter our names and that we were celebrating various anniversaries, without going into details. Well... it turned out they gathered the information so the DJ could make announcements over the PA. So later we heard, "Cassandra, D*, Stephanie... happy anniversary?" We all cracked up.

*Our chaperones name.



While we waited for our dinner we went up to the top deck and enjoyed the warm evening. I reveled in the feeling of my dress swirling around my legs and the wind in my hair. Unfortunately the wind also played havoc with my hairline , and there are a few pictures you will never see due to that. Here's one I like, though.



After dinner we went back to the upper deck for a while as we headed back to the docks. We never did get a chance to dance as we'd originally planned, so that will have to wait for some other time soon. As we debarked, the crew was waiting on the docks and we heard "Goodnight, ladies! Come back again!"

All in all it was a nice night, and my horizons were widened just a bit. The fact that Cassie and I did it with no questioning or drama indicates how well we're both doing and how far we've come. We already have another one planned for around my birthday in the fall.


Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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KathyLauren

What a great outing, Stephanie!  I love the photo of you and Sue together at the table.  You look adorable and totally feminine.  I am glad you are leaning that the mirror can be your friend.  ;)
2015-07-04 Awakening; 2015-11-15 Out to self; 2016-06-22 Out to wife; 2016-10-27 First time presenting in public; 2017-01-20 Started HRT!!; 2017-04-20 Out publicly; 2017-07-10 Legal name change; 2019-02-15 Approval for GRS; 2019-08-02 Official gender change; 2020-03-11 GRS; 2020-09-17 New birth certificate
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Laurie

  The pictures look good as does those women in then, Oh the guy too. lol. I am glad you three got to do something else on your bucket list. Keep moving forward Ladies.

Hugs,
  Laurie
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Jayne01

Nice update Stephanie. The cruise sounds like fun. I am very happy to hear that you are starting to see what everyone else sees when you look in the mirror. You three ladies looked lovely. And the man......well he is a man, I don't know how to comment on that. I guess he looked good too. [emoji57]

It is so nice to see you getting into the groove of living your new life and also trying new things.

Hugs,
Jayne
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steph2.0

Thank you everyone. Yet another milestone. Please go back and reread the middle of my original post. I added a fun story I'd forgotten about earlier.

It did seem a bit strange that I'm used enough to the idea of just being myself now that, other than being a bit watchful for misgendering or weirdness, I had no trepidation about marching into the boat, walking around the decks, or using the ladies rooms. More than once I had to stand in line and talk with the ladies inside while we waited. By the way, as I always suspected, some ladies rooms are very nicely appointed. The one on the second deck had nice couches looking out on the stern of the boat and a makeup table with a big lighted mirror. Very posh for a small ship! I always knew something was being hidden...


Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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Laurie

Well you did buy the anniversary package...
April 13, 2019 switched to estradiol valerate
December 20, 2018    Referral sent to OHSU Dr Dugi  for vaginoplasty consult
December 10, 2018    Second Letter VA Psychiatric Practical nurse
November 15, 2018    First letter from VA therapist
May 11, 2018 I am Laurie Jeanette Wickwire
May   3, 2018 Submitted name change forms
Aug 26, 2017 another increase in estradiol
Jun  26, 2017 Last day in male attire That's full time I guess
May 20, 2017 doubled estradiol
May 18, 2017 started electrolysis
Dec   4, 2016 Started estradiol and spironolactone



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Jessica

Quote from: Steph2.0 on July 01, 2018, 06:54:11 PM
Thank you everyone. Yet another milestone. Please go back and reread the middle of my original post. I added a fun story I'd forgotten about earlier.

It did seem a bit strange that I'm used enough to the idea of just being myself now that, other than being a bit watchful for misgendering or weirdness, I had no trepidation about marching into the boat, walking around the decks, or using the ladies rooms. More than once I had to stand in line and talk with the ladies inside while we waited. By the way, as I always suspected, some ladies rooms are very nicely appointed. The one on the second deck had nice couches looking out on the stern of the boat and a makeup table with a big lighted mirror. Very posh for a small ship! I always knew something was being hidden...


Stephanie

I love the feeling of just being a woman, to not think of thinking that I am one but just being one.
I think that is all of ours goal, to just be, without it on our minds all the time.

Hugs and smiles, Jess 🌸🌸🌸

"If you go out looking for friends, you are going to find they are very scarce.  If you go out to be a friend, you'll find them everywhere."


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Kendra

Quote from: Steph2.0 on July 01, 2018, 04:56:50 PM
> I had a bit of an eye-opening moment after we sat down. The wall I was facing at the far end of the deck was mirrored, and when I looked up there was a pretty lady sitting off in the distance looking back at me. It took a second to realize who she was, and when it hit me I had to smile. I wondered, is this who other people see when they look at me, not all the flaws that are so evident to myself? It was a surprising realization that maybe I'm not doing as badly as I always think I am.

Stephanie, tape this to your mirror at home.  Actually we all need to... we each see our own flaws far more than anyone else does. 

I've heard cis-gender women sometimes obsess over things other people barely notice, but in our cases it is amplified. 

I've said this before, but you are finally starting to realize it: you're doing great. 
Assigned male at birth 1963.  Decided I wanted to be a girl in 1971.  Laser 2014-16, electrolysis 2015-17, HRT 7/2017, GCS 1/2018, VFS 3/2018, FFS 5/2018, Labiaplasty & BA 7/2018. 
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steph2.0

Quote from: Kendra on July 01, 2018, 07:47:45 PMI've said this before, but you are finally starting to realize it: you're doing great.

Coming from my heroine, that means more than you know. Thank you.


Stephanie


Assigned male at birth 1958 * Began envying sister 1963 * Knew unquestioningly that I was female 1968 * Acted the male part for 50 years * Meltdown and first therapist session May 2017 * Began HRT 6/21/17 * Out to the world 10/13/17 * Name Change 12/7/2017 (Girl Harbor Day) * FFS With FacialTeam 12/4/2018 * Facelift and Lipo Body Sculpting at Ocean Clinic 6/13-14/2019 * GCS with Marci Bowers 9/25/2019
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