Today's been a little stressful! I'm going to visit a friend in Rochester this weekend and she and I and another friend are going to a bar/restaurant/bowing alley and I decided to go dressed as a woman. I only went out as a woman once, which was back in July, and it was right before I started HRT. I went out to a bar I was familiar with in my own town and I drank before I went out so I wasn't so nervous, but this time I don't think I'm going to drink, I'm already nervous about going out dressed up, I don't wanna push the bathroom issue, if I drink I will be constantly peeing!
So I've been preparing for this already, I trimmed my body hair with the intent to do a full shave over the next few days, and last weekend I did a little shopping with a friend and I have my outfit picked out and I'm set on makeup. I wanted to practice my makeup over the next few days because it's been a while since I've used it, and then something happened. My dad called me and said that the company we're working for wants us to go out to the Albany area for the next 3 days. I'll be staying in a hotel with my dad and he doesn't know about me yet. I've stayed with him a lot before but this is my first time rooming with him while I'm on HRT. I don't think that part will be a big deal, he never pays attention to what medication I take, but I'm hoping that he doesn't notice that my legs are shaved. Now I won't really have time to practice my makeup or shave the rest of my hair until Friday night when I get back, which I was super stressed about because I already had plans for other things but now I'm guna blow them off. I have a couple things I can't blow off though, I need my estrogen refilled, I only have enough to last me til saturday morning and then I'm seeing my friend friday night and she's gunna trim the ends of my hair real quick cuz they need to be cleaned up. I hate rushing, so I hope things go smoothly on saturday and I hope I don't get too nervous and chicken out once I get up there, and I hope that I don't experience any negative people when I go out!
looking forward, Halloween is coming up and I've dressed in women's costumes before at parties and passed it off as a joke, but I think people are finally realizing that I'm not joking. My friend in Rochester is having a party on Oct 21st that I'm going to and the other day she asked me if I want to be introduced as Maddie at the party, and she wanted to know if she should give her friends a heads up about me, even though she's sure they'll all be fine with it. I don't really know any of her friends from that area, so this party might be a little awkward! I still don't know what I wanna do for a costume, so let me know if you have any ideas! then a week later on the 28th I have a local party where I will know mostly everyone, and this is actually the one I'm more worried about, I have some, uh, "friends" who can be very mean spirited, especially when drunk, and I'm really hoping they don't call me out for my costume.
Thanks for reading, sorry for the long post, I just needed to vent a little!
