My boobs are growing!! (Charlie Nicki's Diary)

[Sarah_P]

Yeah the wait and the uncertainty of what will happen. I think I also feel lonely even though I don't want to admit it. Most of the time I'm just thinking that I want to have a relationship but I know it's not the right time.

I soooooo want to date. The loneliness is overwhelming sometimes. I can usually deal with it by hanging out with friends, but it's still there in the background. It doesn't go away, but I can set it aside for a while.

[Cassi]

I soooooo want to date. The loneliness is overwhelming sometimes. I can usually deal with it by hanging out with friends, but it's still there in the background. It doesn't go away, but I can set it aside for a while.

Where's Sergeant Pepper when ya need him???

[Charlie Nicki]

Having patience while transitioning is probably the hardest thing for me. I want to have it all! Right now. Ugh, where's the gender bending magic wand when you need it??

By the way, my hair feels drier now...after a period of looking great. Still looks good but feels drier. I read somewhere that that could happen with low T right? If so, yay! No T in my body is good news.

[Roll]

Tell me about it, I'm getting more and more impatient as I go. 

[Cassi]

Ah, patience is something they should make a pill for!

[Denise]

I feel the same way. I used to think that when I looked at and admired other women, it was in the same way as any other guy. Then I realised that most guys are thinking "I want to be with her" and I was thinking "I want to BE her".

Jayne

That describes my dysphoria perfectly.


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[fleurgirl]

Hi! Don't know if this late but my boobs are also growing! ((Very slowly, and they're not even really there yet, but it's happenin'!

I've been on bicalutamide (androgen blocker) for about two months now and the tissue blow my nipples is so sore and tender. I leaned forward against my desk at school, brushed my little breast buds against the edge, and the pain was almost excruciating. However, it's a good kind of pain because I can't wait to see my girls!

[Jessica]

Happy Valentine's Day sister!
💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
Hugs and squeezes, Jess

[Charlie Nicki]

Happy Valentine's Day sister!
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Hugs and squeezes, Jess

Happy Valentine's to you darling! And to everyone else, hope you had a great day

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[Charlie Nicki]

I haven't updated the thread in a while so I thought I would share something that happened a couple of weeks ago. So it was a Sunday and I was with a group of classmates working on something for the postgraduate course we are taking. We went to this restaurant to grab lunch and I went to the men's bathroom to pee. As I finished and started washing my hands, a guy around 40 opens the door and just stays there, and then goes back to check if the sign was indeed the men's bathroom. When he realized it was he said out loud "men's bathroom??" and just left and didn't go in. He thought I was in the wrong bathroom!! And then as I left I saw him talking to his wife and pointing at the bathroom in disbelief. Needless to say I was shocked that he could read me as female or close to female, I still present male, I was wearing male clothes, and had the upper part of my hair in a ponytail, while the rest was loose. Exactly like this (no facial hair though):



So I wasn't even trying to present female, and furthermore I was hungover, tired and sleepy, so I didn't even look cute. But it felt soooo good of course!! He really made me smile. It hasn't happened again but it was a good shocking moment.

[Jessica]

I know that made you feel good girlfriend.  I hope it becomes more frequent for you.
I know with myself, I'll catch a glimpse of the woman within, in the mirror sometimes.

Hugs and smiles, Jess

[Charlie Nicki]

I know that made you feel good girlfriend.  I hope it becomes more frequent for you.
I know with myself, I'll catch a glimpse of the woman within, in the mirror sometimes.

Hugs and smiles, Jess

Jess, I can already see that woman in your avatar. And she looks lovely!!

[Jessica]

Jess, I can already see that woman in your avatar. And she looks lovely!!

Thank you dear friend, I do too, and it's very exciting!
It was a turning point for me when I dropped the FaceApp avatar and put my real self up.

[Roll]

I haven't updated the thread in a while so I thought I would share something that happened a couple of weeks ago. So it was a Sunday and I was with a group of classmates working on something for the postgraduate course we are taking. We went to this restaurant to grab lunch and I went to the men's bathroom to pee. As I finished and started washing my hands, a guy around 40 opens the door and just stays there, and then goes back to check if the sign was indeed the men's bathroom. When he realized it was he said out loud "men's bathroom??" and just left and didn't go in. He thought I was in the wrong bathroom!! And then as I left I saw him talking to his wife and pointing at the bathroom in disbelief. Needless to say I was shocked that he could read me as female or close to female, I still present male, I was wearing male clothes, and had the upper part of my hair in a ponytail, while the rest was loose. Exactly like this (no facial hair though):

So I wasn't even trying to present female, and furthermore I was hungover, tired and sleepy, so I didn't even look cute. But it felt soooo good of course!! He really made me smile. It hasn't happened again but it was a good shocking moment.

That is super awesome!!! I can't wait to get there!

[Paige]

I haven't updated the thread in a while so I thought I would share something that happened a couple of weeks ago. So it was a Sunday and I was with a group of classmates working on something for the postgraduate course we are taking. We went to this restaurant to grab lunch and I went to the men's bathroom to pee. As I finished and started washing my hands, a guy around 40 opens the door and just stays there, and then goes back to check if the sign was indeed the men's bathroom. When he realized it was he said out loud "men's bathroom??" and just left and didn't go in. He thought I was in the wrong bathroom!! And then as I left I saw him talking to his wife and pointing at the bathroom in disbelief. Needless to say I was shocked that he could read me as female or close to female, I still present male, I was wearing male clothes, and had the upper part of my hair in a ponytail, while the rest was loose. Exactly like this (no facial hair though):



So I wasn't even trying to present female, and furthermore I was hungover, tired and sleepy, so I didn't even look cute. But it felt soooo good of course!! He really made me smile. It hasn't happened again but it was a good shocking moment.

That is so cool.  I wonder what would happen if he knew the truth.  I imagine he would blow a mind circuit or two

Well done
Paige

[Cassi]

I think you do a great job in those movies!!!!!!

[Charlie Nicki]

I think you do a great job in those movies!!!!!!

Who? Lol.

[Cassi]

Who? Lol.

Doctor Who

[Charlie Nicki]

I've began booking appointments with plastic surgeons to compare prices and procedures and last Tuesday I had my second kinda male fail situation.

So I arrived to the doctor's office, checked in with the receptionist and stayed in the waiting room. I had one headphone in one ear just so I could hear when they called my name. There were 2 elderly ladies sitting right in front on me and a 40 year old woman next to me. So I was distracted on my phone and I heard the old ladies talking but I couldn't understand what they said and suddenly I hear "nice hair, nice skin..." I look up and one of the old ladies is staring at me so I took off my one headphone and asked her if they were talking to me. She said that yes they were and that her friend was asking her if I was a boy or a girl. I instantly got BLUSHED AND EMBARRASSED. And they both stared waiting for an answer. Well it was a super small room, everyone could hear what they said and I didn't know what to tell them! Lol so I just shrugged and the 40 year old woman next to me said: "You are what they want you to be" and I smiled and said to them "that's right, I am whatever you want me to be" and laughed it off and buried my head in my phone again.

It was embarrassing but funny and cute! Made me feel good. And again I just kept wondering how on Earth would they think I was a woman? I'm so far from my goal... but it made me smile. And yes I know asking someone that question in public is super rude and inappropriate but just picture these 2 super old ladies who don't give a crap anymore and just say what they think. It was funny.

Or maybe they were just blind lol.

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[Cassi]

That's cool.  My friend that I came out to yesterday told me that I had to be true to my true self and if anyone couldn't understand that, then "F" them, figurately.  Made me feel good.