My name is Nick or Nickie, I wanted to drop by this evening and introduce myself. My story is extremely similar to most everyone on here.
I have no official diagnosis. I really don't know who I am. I know I have been Nickie for a long time, and I have been Nick for a long time.
I have an extreme distaste for most of my male features, and I prefer looking feminine and pretty, it's the only time I feel genuinely happy.
I have crossdressed for years, and I have also fought the urge to do so for years, and felt guilt and self imposed shame because of it.
I am currently looking for a Gender therapist in the Knoxville Tn area, if there are any suggestions that would be awesome.
I am tired of fighting myself, and I need help.
I am luckier than most I have a supportive wife, who knows about crossdressing, and I have a good job work from home no video conferences, and great health insurance.
Anyways this was a rambling intro, count it as much as a self confession, as much as an intro, I have never admitted this before.
There are more to my urges than just crossdressing.