First, Susan's Place is an awesome site! I have learned so much here, from the community comments and links to info. I plan to become a paying member after I pay off some debt. I'm a late bloomer. I lived most of my life confused, not sure of the "me" inside. I felt too feminine to be the male I was expected to be, and acting male has became more and more uncomfortable. My first clue of something special hiding inside came at 7. I wore a dress for Halloween and loved it!!! I felt so happy. And when others told me I'd make a "good girl" I was even happier. I've remembered this vivid event throughout my entire life and can still visualize myself, boy in dress, moving through the dark street to collect candy. Skip 50+ years and here I am, my life altered once again by wearing a dress I bought impulsively, after deciding not to get a tattoo to express my feminine side. (No tattoo yet.) The dress is pink with lace and has become my favorite article of clothing. That dress led to more dresses and other things, and the woman in me rose to the surface. She often catches me off guard and brings tears to my eyes. Many hours/days she takes over I feel I'm in her sacred space. I've learned to love this space and feel frustrated when I have to leave it to enter the world outside my home. I've been seeing a therapist for 2 months and feel I'm moving towards transition. I've spent many many hours reading about it and know it's what I want. I also know I can't go back to where I was two months ago. This new place feels too "right."
