so, i've been a little frustrated that i haven't really been feeling girly lately. before, i had some things i could wear that made me really feel it, but those things don't have the same effect anymore. some of it may also be my general mood being not the best lately.
i've also had some weird moments where i'm really restless, i have to constantly move my body and i'm either breathing really fast or heavy. i feel like i have to do something, but in that moment i'm not sure what. it's not super intense and it's not like my mind is racing or i'm anxious, but if i really go into it, it feels like i'm going to cry, but i can't quite get there.
this has led me to looking more at clothes. looking at girl's clothes made me kinda uncomfortable before, but i've slowly begun to find things i like and i've actually ordered some (some sweaters that don't look too "girly", but are still cute). i hope that will help. at the same time, i'm afraid my dysphoria will get worse if they don't fit right or if i look weird