Super news on the laser. I would be very pleased with that.
Well done girl!
I think sometimes we have to take the odd leap of faith. We don't always know the outcome but have to take an educated guess. Sometimes it's better to act than do nothing at all and stagnate. I can't remember who said this quote, but my dad uses it all the time: always do something, even if it turns out wrong. Never do nothing. Do nowt, spend nowt and you'll achieve nowt. (nowt = nothing for all those who don't speak colloquial midland english!! lol).
QuoteWent to talk to my mom and dad about my choices (not out to them so did keep my pink fingernails firmly in my pockets) and mentioned about hair transplant. Well my dad reacted to the whole convo like a sledgehammer like he normally does but my mom just sat there looking all worried about stuff going wrong abroad and it might be better to wait a bit for the cash to do it in the uk, she did say she completely understands though (even though she thinks im cis male). I did have it in my head that i might be able to do the hair by this summer but my mom wanted me to promise that i wouldn't do it for 12 months - i promised her 6 months in the end. Lasor on face will take 6 months anyway and i might not have a full paying job next month so it kinda feels like the sensible thing to do. Now knowing my GD i do think something will need to take it's place though, ive got a feeling that i might be rocking some colour on nails in public more often... and the wig privately but its just so hard when you have kids, it rules out at home for most of the day.
I'm not surprised your mom is worried. I am too to be honest, but again, sometimes we have to make a leap of faith and I can't imagine (well I can try) how much GD hair loss can cause. If it helps lessen the pain of the GD then it's worth every penny. Your mom is just concerned about her child so I totally get that. At the end of the day, I'm sure they both want you to be happy in your life. If I were in your situation, I'd go for it, even if it's in 6 months time.
QuoteSaying that though my daughter who's 5 noticed the nails tonight, was confused at first but i just said i put it on when she was asking how it got there, like someone had pinned me down and put it on without me knowing or something but she was ok with that after 5 mins.
That's good. At least now she's getting used to the idea.
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There's a hell of a lot going on in my life atm, fair wack of it isn't connected to GD. It's strange though that everything, well alot of stuff is going right or changing at this point in my life. 6 months ago i felt trapped but now everything is shifting and i feel the power to be able to move things in a direction i want. Things might go horribly wrong but im looking at the positives right now, i keep coming back to two ideas. 1) accepting that im trans and need to move forward has had some other positive effects around me, i mean i know im changing - becoming more comfortable with who i am inside - maybe thats radiating out? I know i have no control over a redundancy offer but even that im seeing as a good thing if i can get it. or 2) someone is watching over me and giving me a little help (im not religious but its still an option!)
Sounds like you are in a MUCH better place now than 6 months ago. I do know how you feel as I'm on the same timeline. That trapped feeling is absolutely horrible and it's so empowering to be able to make decisions for yourself that only YOU control, not everyone else and you just drift along for an easy life. Personally I'm sick of doing that. I have had lots of comments about the fact that I'm changing also, so I think we do radiate out these positive changes. I'm MUCH more comfortable with who (and what) I am now. Self acceptance is a HUGE step but the most satisfying one. This is going to be a life changing year for you in pretty much every aspect of your life by the sounds of it. these changes are positive and will hopefully usher you into a new era and chapter of your life filled with happiness and love. xx