I was talking with somebody on ->-bleeped-<- earlier, and noted that my time on Lexapro was fraught with a lot of strange dysphoria/bodily dissociation that wound up not being genuine, leading me to believe that I had no gender. When I quit, the feelings stopped (though I continued to question myself for a long time, likely because I already had subconscious feelings of being trans through the whole experience). Someone else noted that they had felt similarly while on the drug.
If you've taken Lexapro, did you experience something similar? I was on birth control at about the same time, though the SSRI did come with a unique sort of dissociation and I don't think I can attribute to being on what is essentially low-dose female HRT. I didn't particularly enjoy being induced into a kind of chemical menopause for 5 years, but the side-effects of that was mostly constrained to the body and the side-effects mitigated by other, body-focused remedies. The Lexapro felt like a slow, faint brainwashing. I actually went so far as to ask the surgeon who did my hysterectomy about colpocleisis, which he shut down pretty quickly. (A good idea.)
Research gave me the term 'xenomelia', which is something I experienced heavily while on Lexapro. So, yeah. Experiences, anyone?
